journey of love begins

2011-01-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

"dad" had been recently charged bankrupt.. basically this post is to vent my frustration.

i dunno he's stupid or wad.. he needs to fill up a statement of affair (some document required to fill up before he attends the bankruptcy briefing), n the paper states clearly that any f...alse information will lead to a fine or jail / both.. i told him clearly about this.. n when he go to the person whom are allocated to assit him in completing the form.. he told the person he is not employed... is he darn stupid or wad.. govt can check tis sort of info within seconds.. end up we insist he go back ask the person amend for him..

den tat day he went for the briefing.. they told him to open a insolvency account, which requires a $100 initial deposit.. he was given a form to do so at any bank.. den he go ask the bank open acct need how much.. the bank told him $500.. den he come back say no money open acct.. he nv bring tat form down of cos tat fellow in the bank tell him $500.. and on the 11th he was told to open the acct.. till now haven open.. n his repayment to the creditors will be deducted on the 16th of jan.. so i ask him how he going to pay the repayment scheme.. he say the person say can pay via singpost also.. den i ask him why nv go pay yet since already over 16th.. he say he dunno how.. den i ask him why u nv ask the person how to pay at singpost.. he replied: i thought you can make it.. meaning to say he think i know how to.. he is the one tat attend the briefing n expect me to know wad was briefed.. what sort of person is he man.. as though i was charged bankrupt before and i noe the whole damn procedure..

there are lots of ungraceful thing he did.. many stupid comments he made tat make all of us within this family disappointed.. since when will have a dad owe people money den say mortgage the house n ask the son to repay the loan.. wad crap is this.. n say if dun pay den dun stay here.. Wt* man.. i almost left home when my mom told me he told her tat.. he's so dependent on my mom to remind him on everything single little thing till my mom everyday feel stress.. being bankrupt also because of stupid things he did while being a boss.. n now problem arises he expects us to be the one to help him solve, putting all the pressure on us whereby he lives normally like a usual person? and when he went to attend the briefing my mom told me he took a cab there.. wad kind of bankrupt person is this.. wad bullshit.. i had given up on tis man named dad since i was born..

2010-06-07T22:17:00.003+08:00

last week before i ord.. have to finish the clearance stuffs by weds cos it seems like thurs and fri wouldnt have time.. all these could be done in one day but the people needed are all over the world.. =.= dun quite understand the system n need for it.. wadever it is.. 2 yrs are over soon..
seems so long yet so short also.. jus like over in a blink.. im happy i got into this vocation.. its godlike.. second to none...

im happy i secured a job soon enough too.. hope all will be well and colleagues will be nice people.. first job, excited but also filled with lots of anonynomous.. unknown future.. new phrase of life.. yet again.. but tis is one which would last forever i guess.. adult working life.. growing older and seeing this world changing..

met up with poly mates ytd.. haven met for quite a long time.. used to have plenty of close frens in poly.. but ever since NS dunno y a lot had gone... miss the poly life so much.. returning back occasionally for table tennis training makes me miss the times spent in np even more.. one of the greatest part of my life.. life was boring until i start poly.. new experiences, friends and all.. din regret going into np.. gave me so much memories.. i wished time had pass slower back then..

time for bed.. gotta return to base everyday this week.. last 4 days or NS.. hahas..

2010-06-05T23:31:00.002+08:00

haven blog for a super long period.. well, life is the same.. as usual..
family issues alway is around.. respect need to be earned.. not demanded..
but if not for the fact tat things are.. i wouldnt bother.. jus dun push me to my limits..
or else wad happened in my dream would happen in real..

brief update on wad happened recently

family status : little ups n many downs
career status: great, going ord soon and got a job
relationship: can be better

wished life were better.

2009-11-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

y grumble when u can alway choose another way out.
jus wished i can leave soon.

2009-11-04T22:01:00.001+08:00

its like so wtf..
do i look like im born to be the messenger?
u all got qns ownself ask the other..
stop asking me to ask tis n tat den pass the msg back.. damn it

2009-11-02T20:11:00.002+08:00

haven blogged for so long.. had been really lazy i muz admit..
dad had been thru his op n he's fine so far.. his health has improved
but some things stays the same.. i dunno y...
y is it u have to use me as a middle person between u two?
is it so hard to say wad u wan personally? y muz kip ask me pass msg?
y muz call me jus to ask questions abt him? y?
im so stuck in between.. bullets flying all over above my head.. n that is giving me pressure..

life has been very monotonous.. im so tired...
everyday jus passes as though nth had happened..
i feel so empty.. im glad i have frens tat can bring smiles to my face..
im glad i have a gf who can stand my temper.. be it whether im wrong or not..
i jus miss the good old days.. but life gotta move on..

i have a goal.. i wanna pursue a degree.. but think it wont happen anytime soon..
i think i really wasted my poly education.. i have a diploma.. but a gpa of 2.8 is bullshit diploma..
i regret y i din heed the advice of people whom had told me to study hard..
now only can think of how good it would be if i can get into uni....
im full opf envy those who made it.. but i can only blame myself so being a big slacker in poly..

i promise myself if i can pursue my degree, i will work a million times harder den i did in poly..
i promise myself i will make life easier for my kids in future..

its never too late to work hard i hope.

2009-08-28T22:09:00.002+08:00

good things tat happened recently:
- 2 yr n 3 mths
- improving at work
- gd weather when needed
- getting happy for being lucky
- off today
- dad discharged from hospital, soon surgery appt
- ate sakae buffet today
- play mj today, zi mo da san yuan!
- new psp game to play
- did 6 chin up tis morning ( if only tis standard can be maintained =/)

so full now!

2009-08-24T22:15:00.002+08:00

good things tat happened today:
- approached by potential bike buyer
- safe bus journey thru n flo work
- improvement in work
- washed fish tank in camp
- bus came immediately when i left camp
- ran 5.5km
- refrained from eating too much
- air con fantastic
- safe n sound as at now
- miss u

praying for a fast recovery

2009-08-20T21:55:00.002+08:00

good things tat happened today:

- safe journey thru n flo nuh
- parking lots available
- slacked whole day
- safe n sound

sent my dad for his appt at nuh today.. ended up being warded there.. stay there for the whole day.. super boring.. nth to do there.. hopefully things will improve..

nth much for today.. quite a quiet day for me. =/
hope my luck has changed.

2009-08-18T21:18:00.002+08:00

good things that happened today:
- slept more den usual
- smooth journey thru n fro sbab
- coc over
- left earlier den expected
- force 6 chins up out of myself
- lost a bit of weight =)

gotta kip it tis way.. =) nid to lose more weight still far from ideal. =)
yawns.. tired after coc.. nid a break.. =/ tmr still nid work.. shake head..

2009-08-17T20:03:00.002+08:00

it had been a long nv tiring few days for me..
coc is making me really tired everyday i come home..

good things tat happened recently:
- long hours under the sun, making me sweat = lose a bit of weight
- quebec team chalet over the weekend
- enlightened tat money should not be gambled so much
- lucky to be able to drive to sbab
- coc is going to be over!
- my darling passed both her papers(acca)
- getting a bit tanner
- carried heavy things, hopefully muscles grown a little
- marina barrage trip with gf

need a long break.. tired to the max..

2009-08-10T20:53:00.002+08:00

some times i just dun understand why people pay for their education and dun wan to go and be educated. there are many in this world who wanna study but cant afford the cost or due to other restrictions. i think if anyone who had chosen to study should study diligently and work hard. and since having chosen this path, no matter how tough it is also dun give up.. sometimes it can be tiring/daunting/disappointing/discouraging, but it just depends on u yourself to persevere towards the end.

due to various problems, i dont think i will be able to start my part time studies in jan 2010, it's kind of disappointing. regret is a very simple word but can be filled with plenty of emotions. this simple word can describe on my past. live life without any regrets, is that possible? i think it is if one can be sure of whatever he is doing. being sure is not enough.. is being rational on each n every decision he/she makes. slacking in poly is certainly not a rational thing i did. n regret is the word i have in mind.

seeing my friends getting in unis, be it govt or private, i feel of envious of them. a degree definitely has more depth den diploma which has an indirect impact on an individual, higher educational level does not 100% guarantee anyone success but to a certain degree, it does affect how well u will get paid for the same job and how knowledgeable one can be.

after reading the book 'The Difference' by Jean Chatzky. i think it had broaden my thinking about many different aspect in life.. the majority of this book guide individuals to attaining wealth which is useful. however, certain parts of the book also guide inidividuals to be different; like wad the title says. it has motivating case studies, and it makes me think deeper into my life. what goal do i have in the past? none. but after reading the book. i have my goal. and having a goal is not enough. its the things u do to attain it that is impt. which is absolutely true.

its also this book that teaches me to be optimistic, although i think i m already v optimistic.. lol.. but optimistic in taking notice of little good things that happened in life is not wad i have done before.. as little things often when by un-noticed. whoever is reading this, i would encourage u to jot down the little things tat happened to u at the end of each day.. by doing so u will realise actually many things around us are actually things tat actually happen around us everyday but we dun notice it. simple things like a home-cooked meal from ur parent can be something people often overlook, a simple greeting from ur fren, a breeze just when u r feeling warm, the birds chirping in the morning, n many more.. life would be more beautiful if u take time to appreciate it.

good things that happened today:
- free newpaper at my doorstep this morning
- safe trip while driving
- super short nap while waiting my mom to vacuum the floor then i can mop
- the company of my gf
- watched hangover
- gf decided to go lesson
- 9km+- in 50mins, run with my bro
- simple dinner at home
- relaxing time now
- love holidays

2009-08-09T00:49:00.002+08:00

good things tat happened past few days:
- safely past by each day
- long weekend
- national day celebration, along with gd food
- lost $20 in mj, although only manage to win 2x 2tai out of whole round
- air con obedient
- gathering with poly mates. great
- ate steamboat buffet (luckily i manage to control my mouth, eat an average amt. lol)
- great chill out session at PCC,vivo
- safe journey home
- payday!
- backpay of allowance, fantastic!

2009-08-05T22:26:00.002+08:00

good things today:
- free and easy feeling
- safe operation
- great lunch
- great nap
- air con feeling gd too
- almost finishing my fantastic book
- excited abt the weekend
- found a gd bicycle lobang
- safe n sound at this moment

gotta slp soon.. or else i will alway stuck online till so late.. have to meet my target of slping at 1030pm.. lol..

2009-08-04T21:20:00.002+08:00

good things for today:
- no need carry bag to work.. feel like so free n easy.. haha
- had chance to practise my specialisation during training
- had a safe training
- know my weaknesses in operation
- had a gd nap
- enjoyed watching people got smashed by cake
- bus 72 came when i reached bus stop..
- met up with darling
- ate one of my favourite food; bbq sambal fish
- had a sundae at mac to relax
- air con in good mood
- safe n sound at this moment
- hopefully enough slp tonight

beautiful weekend coming;
- fri mj-ing with team mates
- sat poly project mate gathering
- sunday mj-ing with darling n frens

2009-08-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

good things that happened today:
- a bee came into my hse( chinese says bee bring gd luck)
- bus 72 came within mins after i reached bus stop
- read my gd book on bus
- seeing my pchan is still doing fine
- relax day at work
- slept on the way home on bus
- ran 10km
- ate plum n cherries for dinner + 2 glasses of iced milo
- air con worked again (fabulous)
- feeling gd n healthy
- im still breathing at tis moment

think that sim application is starting soon.. think i can only afford unisim.. hopefully.. even better if uol etc accepts me.. lol.. but $ will be a concern.. hope i get my backpay tis month.. =/ though on a mere $60, it mean a lot to me..

2009-08-02T23:41:00.002+08:00

good things that happened today:
- met up with my gf
- watched movie which i haven had one for quite long
- saw actress huang bi ren, n her kids
- had a great meal at cafe cartel
- bought 4D for my future dad-in-law, which he strike consolation
- the excitment of striking 4D first prize (false alarm)
- my air con worked!
- knowing my gf loves me
- still breathing at tis moment

relating to the 4D first prize, its so funny! dammit.. lol..
i checked the results online.. i saw first prize 2168..
n i rmb i bought a number with tis exact 4 numbers...
jus tat not sure the position for the 4 numbers correct or not..
very happily assumed that i did buy exactly the same number i ran to my wallet which contain the ticket.. lol.. i really thought i struck first prize.. when i saw the ticket i drop on the floor.. dunno laughing at myself or the ticket.. lol...
i bought 2616 and 2618.. so omg.. hahaha.. so close to a small windfall yet so far..
hahaa.. cant believe it tat i was so so so close.. haha.. lol..

see the good, ignore the bad
use the power of positive to good use.
motivate, inspire
gracias for life

2009-08-01T22:59:00.002+08:00

decided to blog everyday as long as i got online =)

Good things that happened

ytd:
- got in touch with my sec sch tt coach
- team q clocked its fastest training
- went to sch to play tt / support juniors for polite
- dinner treat from the nptt coach
- im still alive

today:
- Read an amazing book
- Met up with my darling
- no more weird feeling on my chest
- finally managed to do 6 chin ups
- cleaned up one of my cabinet, tidy is something i like(sometimes)
- a safe driving trip
- chat with my yr 1 classmate
- like it tat it's sat, no nid work
- learnt two new foreign words, gracias / grazie (grateful/thank you)
- finally blogged again
- im still alive

what i had done above will be something i will wanna do everyday..
i think taking time to reflect on some good little things that happened in life each day is impt
it makes me feel how lucky am i. and learning to cherish all theses little things is wad im trying to do.

*congratulations to my cousin, Ms Ang for graduation

2009-07-19T13:43:00.002+08:00

sometimes i think we dun quite understand each other.. certain things we dun really see eye to eye.. often ending up in unhappy discussion which i think both of us feel very irritated..
it has been quite a tough period for me.. i jus wish everything will go well..

things may have changed a bit due to how life has been for us.. i wish u can understand the situation im in, u noe best wad i like n dislikes so naturally i will get irritated if the dislikes happens.. i have told u wad i prefer of u n wad i dun like so hopefully things will get better..

recently i read a amazing book by Jean Chatzky. she's an amazing writer.. inspirational i would say.. perhaps it had make me see more meaning of life.. i had been living without any dreams/goals for the past 21yrs.. i have decided to change it n make a difference..

will update wad goals i have soon...

fucked up

2009-07-08T22:08:00.003+08:00

im feeling so messed up now..
life's hasn't been the same ever since my dad got this illness..
i guess i screwed up my own life by increasing my expenses each month..
i feel so irritated with myself now.. why do i have to spend $ on stuffs..
carelessness lead to me having to buy a new phone..
foolishness lead me to spent money i shouldnt be spending..

the economy crisis is kicking in for me..
things doesnt happens the way i wan to..
i have a negative balance which im trying hard to clear but it's an uphill task..
people around me having their own problems too.. wish i could help..
if only i had the financial power to solve all these problems..
life is stagnant to me now. almost nth interest me anymore..
i jus wish i can get myself out of this shit soon.. but i dun see it happening anytime soon..

pressure is setting in from everywhere.. only way to release them is by playing sports
tat's the only thing tat i can do to temporary remove the thoughts in my mind..
i got myself into tis shit n now i really dun feel gd at all..

hanging on, being tough is a chore.. tired of shouldering wad is on my back
but i no longer have control of my life.. life is controlling me..
if there's god, pls take pity of me. ur help will be greatly appreciate..
really wonder if i had been doing the right thing all along.. doubt myself..

deep deep shit.. falling apart

2009-05-24T00:16:00.002+08:00

Introducing to u my new pet : P-Chan the White Baby Lobster

isn't he just cute? anyway im jus calling it a he.. dunno if it's a male/female.. haha
but base on wad i observe i think is a male since it eats a lot! and is very active..
tis naughty boy had ate up my last 3 tetra...
i would say its kind of more clever den its species..
becos when i putting food near to him, he doesnt siam at all..
instead he open his pincers and gladly receive the food.. lol.. greedy little fellow..
paid $10 for him.. hope he will grow big n strong..
if he really grows too big, think i will need to get a big fish tank..
the shop uncle say he can grow as big as 1 feet.. which is big...
i like it's colour i find it very special.. haha.. n nice..
i shall declare 23may as his day, where by i will buy delicious meat for him.. lol..
other den tat, he will have to put up with feeds..
Go to bed p-chan.. u r hyperactive!

2009-05-10T20:59:00.002+08:00

dad is in better condition now.
thank god.

dad

2009-05-09T22:47:00.002+08:00

haven blog for a long time..
today blog becos something bad happened..

dad had a relaspe tis morning..
for the first time i felt so scare tat he might jus leave us..
touch wood of course.. luckily the ambulance came fast..
with my own eyes i saw him in pain..
think my heart thumped as fast as his at that moment..
hopefully things will be better soon.. tough times again..

bestow good health on my dad pls

Friday 13th

2009-03-14T11:37:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was Fri 13th, how true could the myth be?
Many people had believed that fri 13th will be an unlucky day
to believe or not to believe? lol..
for me, i should say i had almost 3/4 of a unlucky fri 13th.. haha..

Morning went to work, everything was fine until. . .
our boss announced that frm now on no more psp allowed..
due to some security reason that was breached by some fools elsewhere..
tat news really broke us down.. frm den on we start saying it muz be fri 13th.. lol

For the rest of the day, we were suppose to have training
our training can only be conducted without lightning risk n rain..
when we prepared to start training, the weather was sunny.. good..
after we moved out to training ground, the sky changed.. we had to kip everything back again..
n we had to return to indoor... and after lunch, the same thing happened.. the sky was fine..
we went out for training... after about 30mins, water droplets start falling from the sky..
we had to change the training plans for safety n ended up so boring due to weather..

After work everything was fine, until i left house for dinner before going to my fren's place for mj.. while i was on my way to dinner, there was tis boy walking against my direction.. we came across each other path n we tried to dodge each other.. in that process, tis boy accidentally kicked my little toe.. i din ouched out loud... but it was really painful... but luckily my toe are made of steel.. lol..

Upon reaching the corridor of my fren's hse, my fren exclaimed:"Look it's fri the 13th!" pointing at a black cat staring at him.. hahaha... we tell him tat's it, he gonna lose the most later on.. n true enough.. he was the big loser... n who's the big winner?
ME! lol.. i won my three frens.. seems like ladyluck has returned! hope it will stay tis way..

I muz apologise to my dearest dearest wonderful laopo here for a few things.
firstly for not able to spend time with u on fri
2ndly for not being considerate for the past few days, i dunno wad got into me
3rdly for being a very forgetful person
and many many things which had cause u to be unhappy.
I'm really sorry dear.. pls forgive me..

2009-02-10T21:51:00.002+08:00

hehe.. haven blog for a long time.. lol..
paiseh ah.. kind of no time some times.. n lazy..
some times also dunno wad to type since nth much to blog abt..
today work learnt something new.. which will eventually be doing for a long time..
proud to be one of the land scorpions..

last sun went to play table tennis, thanks to hazel my ex-junior in poly(also my mei)..
was suppose to play with her n frens, but ended up playing with my sec sch junior.. lol..
den he ask me join AF's table tennis team.. which will be having selection tmr n fri..
hopefully can make it ba.. so long nv train.. standard dropped a lot.. zzz

last night slp half way kana bite by mosquito.. damn..
think its still some where in my hse.. after work came back got bitten again.. !
now kind of interested to study uni for degree.. regretted last time nv study hard..
considering between uni sim n shri.. shri kind of ex since its under curtin uni..
uni sim is much more affordable.. =/ though still ex for me..
hopefully can fulfil my wish of studying degree ba..

after work today went to some where to buy valentines day present..
haha.. im not telling u what it is.. let u heart itchy.. lol..

tat's all for today.. shall blog again when i blog again.. lol

2008-12-30T23:13:00.002+08:00

happy 22nd birthday darling
getting old le hor.. boo.. when will ur white hair grow??
mine got so many le.. already almost countless.. lol..
jus kiddin.. it was a simple day...
i hope u had enjoyed urself though..
although many supposedly surprise dint really surprise..

zhu ni shen ri kuai le,
selamat hari jadi,
happy birthday to siting,
- u noe wad's next-

love u always. . .

2008-12-04T21:50:00.002+08:00

haven blog for a long long time.. lol..
today went to see doc.. got 2 days mc..
dun worry.. im fine.. will recover in soon..
too free till decided to spend some time to blog..

still got a long time to ORD.. =/ 13/06/10
hope time will pass soon..
after ord, dunno should study or work..
hoping everything will be fine..

at tis time, me beloved silly gal is still working..
zzz.. think her employer is really fortunate/unfortunate...
fortunate cos super hardworking..
unfortunate is nid to pay her back with time off.. lol..

Qing Ai De:
so fast 1.5 yrs le.. hope our r/s will grow even stronger as time goes by..
do take gd care of ur body.. u nid more rest.. n drink more water!
use ur brain to study.. dun think of those silly things k.. if not i buish u..
trust me, nothing will bring us apart.. be assured i will be with u forever.

2008-06-28T23:39:00.002+08:00

Booking in tmr..
Time passes very quickly outside..
i wished i had more time but it's impossible..
most of my time is spent in the toilet..
thanks to my diahorrea..
the feeling is awful.. hate it...

i nv fail to upset u each time i mit u.. sorry abt tat..
i nv fail to hate myself each time i upset u..
n sorry for nt showing any appreciation jus now..

it's a tough tough journey we will have to go thru..
only realised how tough it could be when we r in this stage..
really hope we can get thru tis long n tough journey tgr..

one day u will be a strong minded lady.. n no longer a gal..
i trust tat it will happen.. it will.......

One is the word

2008-05-30T14:43:00.003+08:00

Back dated to 28 May 2008

Dedicated to My One & Only GST(Goh Si Ting, not Goods and Services Tax):

One is the word.
It had been One yr tgr with you.
We had been through a long journey tgr and i must say it was an enjoyable yr.

If i were to say there wasn't any unhappiness then it must be a lie.
Yes, there were times where both of us were unhappy over small little things.
BUT, yes, we managed to overcome these little things and moved on tgr as a couple.
I thank you for all the sweet little things u have done.
And, also the little things that we argue over. It had made me learnt to be patient.
I wished i could have a little bit more tolerence, as i know sometimes i still couldn't control my emotions.

Either i burst out or i break down. Bursting out make things worst, same for breaking down. So neither one is the outcome you want. I will be as patient as i can be, as thoughtful as i can. But there will be times whereby i cant be that perfect man in this world. But i will try, try to at least be ur perfect man.

Having been thru 1 yr tgr, i'm sure we know each other more. And both of us jus show our true self infront of each other. There isnt anymore sweet sweet talk or honey words like the start and all the reserved actions to impress each other. i appreciate the way we are now as we do not hide our behaviours etc.

From the start till now, everything had been memorable. All these memories are special to us and its also something that would remind us how happy we were when we are unhappy. I'm glad to share my life with you and willing to share the rest of my life with you. Staying tgr with each other for 1 yr isn't easy. I know very well my weaknesses that could make u upset at times but you still managed it and did not minded.

Thank u for being such a good gf for me. Like wad you said, this year will be different as i'm going for NS. I hope everything will be well and nothing will go wrong. I plegded my heart to you one yr ago and i nv regret it. You are the rightful owner i had been finding to give my heart to.

Once again, thank you my dear. I love u and will nv ever want to leave you.

Pls take good care of urself when im away, i dun wanna see u sick or wad when i book out from camp k. Must be a strong girl, u can do it, i trust u. STRONG GIRL OK! No tears are allowed. Looking forward to the end of NS although it hasnt even started, so we can build on our future =)

2008-03-08T23:23:00.002+08:00

life have not been so good. but life is summed up by 3 words which are "it goes on"
saw tis phrase in the movie recently.

started work tis week... went to work for my dad... i can feel the pressure working for dad, i dunno if its gd or not.. i learnt abt succession planning, a company muz have someone whom can take over the boss when he or she is nt ard.. tis theory had been circling my mind for the week.. there's stress i cant avoid n expectations that i have to meet.

it hasnt been a v nice day today arent it.. i was so looking forward to it, so i can have a break and rest n enjoy the day with u.. but it didnt really turn out to be the way i wished for.. i blame myself for it.. i really really felt so painful.. n yet i dun shed the tears... cos i know it wouldnt help or solve the problem.. i tried i failed.. maybe im jus a lessordinary person..

since young, i had been protected well.. perhaps tat make me turn out to be such a soft person now.. i dun wan to be tis way.. n yet its how im molded into.. i cant handle myself well in situation.. perhaps my brain is jus too lazy to think... im amazed sometimes by the experiences i go thru at work.. it helped me learn to be flexible.. simple little solutions seems so hard to come into me..

starting to doubt my own abilities... i happen to hear on the radio a morning on my dad's car to work... the dj said: it's not becos we cant succeed den we lack of self belief, it's our lack of self belief which lead to inability to succeed. a sentence like tat made me realised many things.. but yet, its jus seems so difficult for one to have faith after failure..

it hurts me so much.. yet i felt like unable to do anything.. i would call it the most painful thing in this world.. tired..

2008-01-12T11:08:00.000+08:00

haven blogged for a long time so here i'm.
well well well, i have been waiting for life to be like tis for a long time.
but not ideal yet.. lol.. =x but i'm satisified with wad i have..
sch assignments/exams left before i graduate:
- Integrated project report
- RMW presentation
- 2 final exams + 1 class test
- Interactive biz networking party + dinner etiquette

n i will officially graduate (provided i dun fail any modules) LOL.
when i calculate my GPA its quite demoralising.. ><
even if this sem i get 4, my average GPA for 6 sems will be 2.9+ only
haha.. lousy grades.. =/ nvm.. cant do much to change it already

updates on wad happened ever since i last blogged(based on wad i rmbed):
-Won the futsal polympics tournament tgr with my wonderful team mates

- Surprise celebration for my dearest on 29 dec

- whole day celebration for my dearest on 30 dec [her bday =)]

- IVP, NP lost to SP 2-3, the two points won by me n another guy, NP lost to NTU 0-5, all my team mates lost 3-0, i managed to lose 1-3... lol... managed to get 1 set off jiayi.. happy for myself, den final match beat SIM 4-1. so we were 3rd place in group, but only top 2 qualify for semis final

- had IP meeting on this thurs, went sch at 1pm, did nth till 9pm n went home. cos i'm suppose to do conclusion part, but i nid the rest of them to finish their front part den i can start.. eventually they finish ytd 2am... so i woke up ytd at 5.30am to do ym conclusion. =/

- had IP presentation ytd. over run the presentation.. lol.. too much info.. but generally shld be gd as lecturers din ask any questions at all. =x may be a bad thing too.. dunno.. lol..

- after presentation went to play soccer! YES.. soccer.. lol.. long time nv play... enjoyed myself!

- END of update of series of event

My luck for 2007 haven been gd. My hse de tua pek gong wan give me luck yet i din grab it.. lol..
=/ dun talk abt it.. if not i feel stupid.. lol.. hopefully yr 2008 will be full of gd lucks, as i will be going through many new experiences, such as NS!

New yr resolution (First time in my life i'm setting resolution?):
- Diet + Exercise to Lost my FATS!
- Be fit asap to be ready for all the possible torture i may face in NS
- Work harder for my studies
- Be courageous
- A neat and tidy room alway
- Do housework when i'm free [like now, but wont do now =x]
- PASS my TP test on 5th FEB! so i can drive during CNY. WAHAHA
- Save $, n not Spend $ [which i'm not doing so!]
- Determination to reach my GOALS! [as u can see, it's hard, so plenty of determination is needed =/]

New yr Wishes:
- Wealthy and healthy for Family/Myself/My friends/Relatives/ in short everyone
- God of Fortune visit my House
- Tau Pek Gong continue to give gd luck to me+my family
- Everything shun shun li li for everyone
- R/S with my dearest SiTing continues to be strong, 17 more days to 8th month =D [HUAT ah, for the number 8.. i'm getting a little cranky now]

Alright.. tat's all for now... or else i'm really going cranky with wad i type here.. WHAAH.. siao..

2007-11-25T11:34:00.001+08:00

cont' from previous post..

enough abt talking of society... looking forward to the day i can be free again...
recently gt the urge to play back maple again...
got the urge to enjoy life... but at the same time nid to save $$...
coming tues is polympics futsal quarter finals.. luckily kelvin can play... better defend.. ahah
in the coming 2 weeks i got 3 test... gd luck to myself.. lol...
after blogging nid to study le lo... darlinng now slping like pig on my mattress...
later going er yi hse to cele cousin bday...
argh.... muz study hard now... den can relax during my break... i haven had a break for a long time... tired... slacker rate now is 80% lol... kip on feel like slping..
but cannot... smack myself awake... last sem already... muz get as gd grades as possible after all the lousy results i had for 5 semesters... =x

STUDY TIME!!!

bad yr

2007-11-25T09:24:00.000+08:00

as time pass by, one by one member left..
being a yr3, that's not a good feeling for experience..
however, i understand why they leave as the reasons are simple..
they jus dun feel happy being in society..
there's no pt staying in the society if they are unhappy..
so much so of trying so hard to be bonded, things jus still go beyond control..
i am one of those that lead him into society..
from my freshie, to my SC, to my PH.. i should say he is also one of the most talkable fren in poly.. i'm sure he had been thru so much to have make the decision to leave society..
i can feel for him as i dread being in society now also..
jus 1/2 more months.. and i will enjoy my freedom jus like him...
being in society had made me give up various things of my life..
n the society i'm saying is my sch society.. not secret society. lol..

i once told myself to quit all cca when i'm yr3...
however, i made all the wrong decisions...
initially din wan to apply to be mc this yr... cos i wan to enjoy my life in last yr of poly...
same for table tennis, ever since the seniors left, the team spirit is jus diff..
i wanted to quit at the start of sem 5... yet i dun wan disappoint some people so i stayed..
i dun regret staying.. cos i can see the growth of my juniors..
and seeing the yr1 improving.. i wan to pass them all of i noe abt table tennis to them..
so they can improve and eventually win me before i grad..
but for society, i really regret... for all the fun i had being a sco i decided to join..
but where's all the fun i anticipated being a mc?
maybe the problem lies with me.. but i still feel it's so diff from wad i saw from the last batch and feel.. i can see that the last batch was well bonded and very close to each other...
however, the society now is like so cold... things jus dun go the way we wan..
in organising events, our bookings of venue had to go thru estate mgt.. which is forever making things difficult for us.. and advisors leaving the sch and causing a lack of advisors for society..
i jus feel tat tis isn't the society tat deserve to be the best acade society.
the past batch of mc had done well to win the best acade society each yr..
perhaps tis had set the benchmark on us and this is a gd pressure but is it jus too much for the yr2? i dunno... the P says she is sure everyone can cope.. yes, i agree..
planning and organising wise everyone can cope.. workload too...
but in the mist of coping with these, how much people in our lives we actually neglect?
i once quit maple when i was SCO, cos i wan to do my OG proud.. n i did it.. so i dun regret..
but now i think back why do i tie myself down to tis society when all it gives me is disappointment now.. after my tis last event. i will play back maple.. i wan to enjoy my life now..
if not now den when? after grad den soon will be NS..
i'm sure each n everyone in society now had self reflected if they had contributed enough..
i arent much better... i admit i'm not committed now.. not interested in wad is going on too..
but i put in effort in all my events.. perhaps lesser in the coming one..
but lesser also becos i trust my yr2s can do a gd job as they had already went thru at least 1 event n that certainly give them the experience needed to run tis coming event..

shall continue tis post again.. later..

2007-11-11T14:52:00.000+08:00

haven blog for a long long time..
kind of busy recently...
tmr having IBS sales call...
make appt with teacher who will act as the potential customer..
den i will be the sales person...
den muz talk talk with him.. make him be interested in my product..
zzz... interesting but scary.. lol... hopefully everything goes well..

muz start to save $$, feeling kind of broke
muz restrain myself from spending too much money...
talentime auditions over already.. so glad tat it went smoothly...
hope the rehearsal and finals will be equally smooth sailing...

recently laptop down with some illness which i dunno is wad...
but i reformated it and its ok now.. phew...
have to promise myself to work harder in all aspect of life...

time to buck up... cos i'm not doing wad i promised myself at the start of this sem..

some one is going to have exam soon...
hope i can help u feel less stress...
muz work hard ok? i noe u dun like this period..
but no matter wad, u will have my support..
n i hope during time when i cant acc u, u can be strong
jia you for ur exams n everything! if not DA UR PI GU!
bleahs...

flu

2007-10-22T09:43:00.000+08:00

apologises for not bloggin for a long time..
had been busy n lazy to blog for quite a while..
currently infected by flu virus.. sian...
the most hated virus.. becos it alway take like 2week to 1 mth to recover..
having back ache also.. think becos slp on floor during msa camp..
the camp was quite fun although minor hiccups here and there..
congrats to the project heads involved...
kudos to lime-green group too.. although we din get top3..
had fun with u guys during the camp..

soon got camp coming up again.. BAMP
which is ba camp.. gt trial run on the 2nd n 3rd nov..
den the actual date is tentatively on 21-23 dec..
confirm is another tiring camp.. but 100% a fun-filled one
based on the response last yr.. i'm sure tis yr will be successful too..
however, if the sch estate could be more cooperative den things would be even better..
many many people want to make things difficult for us.. but we will fight for our rights..

thank you for the care n concern
i will take gd care de.. dun worry.

2007-09-21T17:13:00.000+08:00

it's friday! yay.. finally.. haha...
work = only look forward to fri..
today gonna mit up with my SCOs buddies..
haven had an outing for so long... miss those people...
going to leave hse at 6pm... den go mit them at dhoby ghaut...

wondering when i can get my pay..
looking forward to it, cos i wanna buy a psp slim..
think till neck long long already.. lol...
bday coming soon.. woohoo.. bday i look forward to my ang bao from parent..
whaah... think i probably get a psp slim near to my bday..
buy a bday present for myself.. lol..

ytd receive the mindef letter for documentation and medical booking..
time passes so fast.. soon i will be botak again..
to serve the nation.. wonder how would it be like..

shall go play some games le..
-gone-

2007-09-16T11:59:00.000+08:00

had to find time for blogging... nid to release my thoughts after so long
recently got back my results.. arent wad i expected.. 2.5 gpa for tis sem..
meaning even if nxt sem i get 4, my max gpa is 2.8..
i thought tat i could finish my poly with at least 3.. but its impossible now..
i feel so stupid.. next sem i wanna get at least 3.5... promise myself..

just now went for 3rd practical lesson... today engine stalled a lot of times...
5/6 times like tat.. sad... dunno wad i doing.. last lesson nv stall once..
den today like tat.. hope next sun will be better ba... sighs.... i dunno y some thoughts jus come to me... i wonder how it feels like when a person dies.. but i dun wanna die yet..
still young... not long ago, watch naraka 19, thoughts of retribution come across my mind..
the show is not nice, but it conveys the massege tat one shall not commit evil doings..

recently spent a lot of money.. time to cut down expenses... go fetch my darling le... byeZ!

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU (Glenn Medeiros)

2007-08-31T00:59:00.000+08:00

Dedicated to my beloved Si Ting

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU (By Glenn Medeiros)

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

(Chorus 1)
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

(Chorus 2)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

(Chorus 3)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

3rd mth

2007-08-28T00:01:00.000+08:00

SPECIALLY FOR YOU,

HAPPY
3RD MONTH
ANNIVERSARY
TO MY DEAREST SI TING

I LOVE YOU FOREVER.

3 MONTHS MAY SEEMS SHORT ON THE CALENDAR

BUT I'M SURE THE JOURNEY WE BEEN THRU WOULD LEAD US TOGETHER FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES.

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU; YOU OUGHT KNOW BY NOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.

YOURS DEAREST
WINSON

2007-08-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

decided to change to tis song..
cos it's lyrics is meaningful and
it reflects how i feel for u =)
copied from ur blog without permission. hehe..
dun sue me for copyright k =x

2007-08-26T07:44:00.000+08:00

yay! exams are finally over... can take a breather before my Industry Project in Business (IPB) which is going to start on 3rd sept.. at Association of Aerospace Industries (SG) to do a training need assessment project for the aerospace industry.. seems like going to be interesting.. putting wad we learnt into practical use..

i haven had a proper semester break ever since start of yr 2... lol...think the next time im gonna have a proper break is like after i graduating before i get enlisted.. haha.. lookin forward to the future... n next sem, cos going to take 3 modules only.. wahaha... its going to be the most slacking sem i guess.. unless i fail any module tis sem den die... Hopefully wont fail any.. tis sem is one of the worst i had, becos of 5 exam papers.. tiring.. but im glad its over now..

i have gt 1 week to have a gd break before ipb.. gonna cherish tis 1 week.. =)

Secret

2007-08-22T10:53:00.000+08:00

Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi
Jay Chou (Zhou Jie Lun)

冷咖啡离开了杯垫

我忍住的情绪在很后面

拼命想挽回的从前

在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天

是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐

回忆的画面

在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远

又何必去改变已错过的时间

你用你的指尖阻止我说再见

想像你在身边在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远

或许命运的签只让我们遇见

只让我们相恋这一季的秋天

飘落後才发现这幸福的碎片

要我怎麼捡

pre exam

2007-08-12T14:43:00.000+08:00

haven blog for a long time... quite busy...
n lazy... lol.... hmmm... exams coming real soon..
sad to say, still no mood to study.. haha..
but nevertheless will still study ba...
but wad i hate is got 5 papers... so many things to study
n many stuffs to memorise.. lol..
employment act, compensation policies, hrm, blah blah..
think after the exam with all the things in my brain i can be HR manager liao.. lol
wondering wad is my vacation is going to be like..
jus now cleared up my room.. lol... now neat n tidy
my comp n study desk now quite tidy.. haha...
if not messy i see le also no mood study.. lol...
spent like 1hr plus cleaning up... haha... too much rubbish le..
dun think will blog again soon.. maybe after exam den blog again....

all i wan is
qian zhe ni de xiao shou, yi qi zou ren shen de lu

Exam time table is as follows.. lol.. 5 papers.. darn...
COMPENSATION MANAGEMENT
18 AUG, SATURDAY
09:00 AM - 11:00 AM
Blk 56 05-01
seat no.40

INDUSTRIAL RELATIONS
20 AUG, MONDAY
09:00 AM - 11:00 AM
Blk 56 04-01
seat no.39

HUMAN RESOURCE MGT SYSTEMS
22 AUG, WEDNESDAY
02:00 PM - 04:00 PM
Blk 73 03-22
seat no.4

TRAINING & DEVELOPMENT
23 AUG, THURSDAY
02:00 PM - 04:00 PM
Blk 56 04-07
seat no.35

INTERNATIONAL BUSINESS
24 AUG, FRIDAY
09:00 AM - 11:00 AM
Convention Centre Level 1
seat no.140

2007-07-29T13:47:00.000+08:00

long time no blog due to tight schedule... haha..
hmm...
jus pass 2mth le.. happy tat everything is fine..
life have nv been so gd till 2 mth ago..
i really appreciate wad i have now.. n i would still like to say:
thank u my dear, if not for all tat u had done for me, i would nv realise how much u meant to me.
i love u laopo si ting. muacks..

hope u enjoyed urself ytd.. though sat n wait for a long time for the firework..
think ur leg n pi gu sit till pain also le...
next time we shall find a better place to sit =)

2 days later will be my IP presentation.. no idea how its going on..
hopefully they have done a gd job.. feel a bit freeloader.. think better ask them is there anything for me to do... haa.. although i noe i contributed to the report.. but not slides.. i hope they wont mark me down? hehe.. cos all are my gd frens.. but i was backstabbed once by another guy whom i regard as good fren. or even best fren in poly.. nvm.. im not petty... n i noe i was in the wrong.. but i jus not happy tat he nv tell me den jus mark me down..

recently kip raining, dunno y... hopefully can see the sun soon...
rainy days arent gd... spoils the day... haha =x

i miss u laopo..

2007-07-17T23:38:00.000+08:00

long time nv blog le... everthing is fine..
although life seems to be getting more n more busy
today polite has ended...
so far i guess tis is my worst polite ever?
i only won 1 match.. perhaps i had already lost my faith in playing?
today i play my worst match.. cos i din feel like playing at all?
i know i can win easily.. but i din wan to win? i dunno y either.. haha
i din noe wad i doing actually... jus had no mood to play...
its time for me to make a decision.. whether i shld continue..
i dun wanna let the team down.. but i had lost tat spirit of winning..
i shld say today wad i had done is a bad act of sportmanship..
if i were to rate myself for sportmanship i would probably give myself 6/10
haha... cos sometime my emotion would rule over my mind..
especially when i feel too hyped or too low mood...
if i were to continue, i noe i will train very hard..
cos i dun wanna regret after i grad..
i think i shld continue.. guess i will have to put in 100% for training le ba..
have to be serious le.. i probably will train my juniors more...
especially the girls team.. cos i can see the potential in them...
the only motivation for me to stay in the team is my juniors..
cos i think its my duty to help them improve...

society work are getting more n more busy..
sometimes i feel quite stress juggling with all the work
but i noe i chose tis path myself.. n i have to face it...
esporte is coming soon n i will have to work hard...
i think i will devote all my time for the next few days for esporte..
cos i noe i did very little actually.. time to make up for them...
project deadlines are drawing near and all things jus seems to come tgr...
hope i can handle... n i hope esporte will be a big success..

thank u laopo for coming down today... trouble u to travel ard...
n im glad i finally can put on the ring for u..
tat makes us more like husband n wife =x hehe
i love u laopo.. looking forward to our future.. muacks for u..

2007-07-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... today is a suay day..
shall not talk more abt it..
im considering whether i should give up rep nptt..
lead 10-2 n i lost.. i dunno y.. n how it happened..
jus hate myself for losing.. n i hate losing..
im thinking if i shld help coach the players instead..
i dun feel like playing for np.. cos i noe i nid proper training..
but i dun hav... now i dun even feel like playing nyp on tues..
everything start from the mistake i made in the past.. sighs..

thanks for being by my side darling... love u.. muacks...

2007-07-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

just realised how busy im... things r getting more cramped up...
i jus hope i din chose tis path in the first place...
i'm not saying i regret over decision i made.
but now tat im in tis situation, i should give my best for it..
3 years of best society consecutive.. shall do my best to continue the tradition..

grasping for time..
nid a better time mgt.

2007-07-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

long time nv blog due to china trip..
well, now im back... jus have this feeling of dun wan go sch..
like nv rest at all den sch starts... i wan a break...

during the trip there's happy things and unhappy things happen..
there r things tat make me feel irritated..
certain people are jus too sensitive?
and do childish thing tat make me feel irritated..
shall not mention who it is..

now tat im back i wanna enjoy the local food..
really miss it.. nasi lemak, prata, fried kway teow, hokkien mee...
many many more... today had chicken rice with my laopo..
think tmr before going sch i will have nasi lemak..
hahahaha.. anyway happy tat today i manage to spend the whole day with laopo
thank u laopo for acc me go wisma first... think u were bored there..
i had a great time with u today... really miss u lots when i was over there..
so happy to be able to hold ur hand.. hug u.. n kiss u =x

july will be a busy month.. hopefully everything will be fine..
preparation for esporte... polite... and finally actual esporte..
guess being in MC really filled up my schedule... tat was wad i wanted...
but now feel tat it could be a burden to me.. but since im in..
i will put in my best and try to do my duty well...

finally im back..
miss my laopo..
the food..
my family..
take care my laopo..

2007-06-23T11:15:00.000+08:00

pre trip jitters.. lol... starting to feel a little nervous abt the china trip.. wonder wad's going to happen there... hopefully nth wrong will happen.. but one thing for sure, i will miss laopo a lot...

2007-06-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

spent the past few days happily with my darling...
felt so relax and happy when i'm with her.. xin fu de gan jue..
i'm determined to make tis a nv ending r/s..
i'm sure we can do it.. really look forward to our future..
i wanna share my life with u... spend the rest of my life with u...
build our home tgr... and raise our kids tgr... we can n will do it tgr =)

i will be leaving for china in 8 days time..
i noe how u feel even though u dun say..
n i noe u r trying hard to cope with it and dun let me worry...
i'm really glad my laopo is u.. n can understand...
to say the truth.. i also 'she bu de' u... i noe i will miss u terribily over there..
but think of the future we have.. we have a long long journey to walk tgr..
laopo, i hope everything will be fine for u when i'm away and i hope the cards do work..
it may not be nice enough or professionally produced.. but it contains my effort n love for u..
hope u like it.. but hopefully u wont have to open the 2 special cards...
but if u do open them, i hope wadever is inside does make u feel better...
if u nid to cry, i wont stop u.. BUT wait for me to be back.. so i can hug u =x
just wan to tell u, u live in my heart forever.. n i will nv let u go..

i will take gd care of myself over there.. u also muz take gd care when i'm away...
or else... hmmm... when i come back ni jiu zhi dao =x
next 3/4 days will be busy day... but thurs i should be free..
i wanna make use of all the chances to mit up with u before i leave..
although it's 6days... but i'm sure we will miss each other a lot...
and also i would like to apologise.. for not being able to spend our 1mth tgr on the exact date..
i will try my best to keep the sunday after i m back free to spend the whole day with u..
the 3rd best thing tat happened in my life is knowing u.
the 2nd best thing is to have u as my jie for abt 6yrs..
the best thing is when u accepted me on 28 may 07.
i love u my bao bei laopo.. muacks & huggies

2007-06-11T22:34:00.000+08:00

ytd was a very very nice day.. =)
a day where i shared many happy moment tgr with laopo..
had movie, den follow by very relaxing moments..
guess its good to have such relaxing time to take a break from our work..
i'm glad u enjoyed urself and hope it will be part of our happy memories
love n miss u...

had a major hiccup for my sport day event.. faint..
pls let things go smoothly... if not headache ah....

2007-06-06T15:57:00.000+08:00

finish common test today... my fren all cursing the paper today..zzz
they say its difficult.. o.O which i dunno if it is.. lol.. to me still ok...
after the paper was quite happy.. haha.. finally can start slacking again.. lol
later going movie with tingting.. hmm.. finally first time after we tgr go out is not study
looking forward to it.. =)

minor changes/updates for my china trip:
date changed to 25-30june (mon-sat)
taking silkair.. previously was china airlines ><"
tat would mean paying more.. haha...

morgan msged to ask tmr soccer at 5pm, den ask me book court..
as i checked.. 5-9 is booked by netball.. hmm.. think common test period they wont be training?
den i msged jingyi and dee, hopefully they r in sch netball team.. den can tell me if they using the court or not.. haha.. cos i noe they play netball.. lol..
happy happy =) tmr is officially 1 day break for me... after tat busy den think sun rest again..
busy busy... but u will still be in my heart.. promise u tat...
muz take care n drink more water when i'm busy k.. if not ta pi gu =x

time ticking away.. hehe.. can see u soon.. =D
signing off..............

2007-06-05T17:17:00.000+08:00

i'm so glad with wad i have now.. should i say i'm fortunate?
perhaps in the past, ' wo shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu '
i nv realised how u felt... if i had know it earlier.. perhaps i wont had hurt u in the past..
nevertheless, i'm glad u still treated me so nice and care for me..
i was touched.. really touched when i realise how u felt in the past..
in the past, as my jie u was alway by my side when i nid someone..
whenever i face any unhappiness u will be ard for me...
u had alway lend me ur listening ear when i nid to throw out my problems..
n yet i din noe how u felt and even hurt u..
on the contrary, i feel i din did as much as i should have as ur di..
but that's going to be the past.. n i will cherish the future we have..
now i noe how much i meant to u, n i believe this feeling is mutual..
i really hope nth would go wrong between us.. dun wanna have anymore broken rs
i promise u, i will do anything just to let our rs last till the day i leave this world..
let us build our future tgr and support each other for the rest of our lives..

finish common test paper for T&D today.. shouldnt be a prob..
noe wad they asking for, n in my brain i have wad the question wants..
but i dunno if manage to link it to the case study.. hope i did, den can score more..
tmr having comp.. lol... lect 1-6.. only manage to write notes from 1-4(n a half).. later will write for 5 n 6 den read through.. will rmb wadever i can for tmr paper..
haven started ever since i reached home from sch jus now.. lazy =x

ytd wrap my laptop with a new sticker... gold colour.. find tat it suits my laptop well..
haha.. but i think tat shop kept tis sticker for like dunno how long.. the thing not so sticky anymore.. den the effect not as nice... but still very pretty.. haha..

think shall slack for a few more mins before i start studying..
thanks tingting darling.. for loving me and giving me a chance to love u too.

2007-06-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

my life have changed quite a bit..
i hope i can cope and there's things tat makes me happy
i'm glad it happened and hope u feel the same too.

jus now spoke to peifen, i thanked her for giving me a chance to be in MC, although i tot i wouldnt get in, she told me tat they saw the qualities in me so they chose me to be in the MC, and told me to have confidence.. i hope i wont let them down.. trying to adapt as a MC and cope with the amt of work.. SCO is so much of fun and play.. haha.. now i noe how hard the MCs had worked throughout the year.. kudos to them..

common test is coming.. next tues, wed... 2 papers.. i dun seems to be panicking.. lol.. dunno gd or bad.. gotta mug for the next few days..

thanks for the some one special.

2007-05-25T11:42:00.000+08:00

sorry guys.. haven got the time to blog recently..
had been really busy with MC stuffs n sch work..
MC camp is over, one project is down and 4 more to go..
project planning is tough but its worth it when u see the results..
hopefully the projects will all be planned and carried out smoothly...
thanks mel for showing me the ropes as a chief project head..
to all my project heads, i may not be experienced enough yet but i will try my best k.. we will learn together.. but nevertheless u guys can still ask me if got any problem..

my stomach haven been really gd tis few days.. dunno wad's wrong with it..
irregular pain at times... on n off... irritating..

my house is in quite a mess, under minor renovation, change of window, repainting.. etc... massive spring cleaning.. lol... and the font colour u see now is the one that is going to be painted on my room n bro's room wall... my room gonna become a guest room.. haha.. den i will only have a mattress to sleep where ever i wan to.. lol..

looking forward to the next project..

family love

2007-05-13T13:38:00.000+08:00

what happened recently had made me realise it's impt to cherish who we have around us.. especially our family members n loved ones..
i really love my family.. although at times there were arguement..
but tat's wad makes a family...
some time i feel guilty after i have arguement with them..
seeing my parent aged over the years had made me realise i can no longer be dependant on them.. i regret for not being the best a son can be to them.. they had fed me n led me well for the past 19+yr.. perhaps it's time to think back and make up for all the time i had upset my parent... today is Mother's Day.. hopefully tonite i have get my family tgr n have dinner..
had been a long time i haven sat with them n have a family dinner..
i love u mom
i love u dad
i love u kor
thanks for guiding me all these years n let me become who m i today.

just for u

2007-05-13T13:30:00.000+08:00

just for u:
many things have happened.. many unfortunate things..
i noe nth i can say or anyone can say will be able to cheer u up..
but it's not a time to grieve over wad had happened..
no one wan it to happen either.. u have to be strong..
i'm sure ur mom and grandpa wan u to live ur life well..
i'm sure they wan u to be able to do well for ur studies n have a bright future..
it's hard to accept this.. i noe u muz be feeling terrible..
but i'm sure tis had made ur siblings be more sensible...
u muz think of the positive.. lead ur life well.. so they will be happy for u..
i'm still ur friend no matter wad u said.. cos i noe u dun mean it..
i dunno wad i can say to make u feel better.. but u muz stay strong no matter wad..
they dun wan to see u sad either.. so show them u have grown up and can be independant..
lead ur younger sis well.. i'm sure she arent feeling any better den u also..
i believe u can do it.

2007-05-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

i took 1 step forward.. but decided to take 10 steps backward.

last night after i lie on bed.. almost fallin asleep.. my phone rang..
it appears as Mc.joanne calling..
i answered... den joanne sounds like she going to tell me something bad.. lol..
in my mind it was: sorry winson, u din got in MC.. (lol)
den she said.. winson, u selected for MC.. den i was a bit stunned.. haha...
i din expected myself to get in.. cos in the first place i expected others to have better chance..
tmr 9am society room first meeting.. aww.. 9am...
hopefully it ends by 1pm like tat... wanna go mit peiwen they all at JE 3pm..
den go get the drinks tgr..

recently very tired... physically... my body is aching... nid a rest.. haha..
my desktop keyboard got problem... called HP.. they gonna replace a new one for me..
but den no stock now... nid wait 1/2 weeks.. everytime i got laptop/desktop prob muz wait..
laptop is like tat.. now desktop also like tat... crap..
nid to get it fixed soon den i can print my notes... going off le.. late... nid slp soon.. tmr first MC meeting.. wonder how it's like.. haha.. tat time SCO first meeting felt so weird.. hehehe... from on now, i shall be 100% committed to BA Society.. my priority.. think i will jus stay as things are now..

2007-05-01T14:52:00.000+08:00

Happy Labour Day or MayDay! This is one of the 11 Public Holidays Singapore has.
Thought today can have breakfast with my parents...
but when i woke up i see no one at home.. lol.. wonder where they went..
so bored today... jus did my hrms tutorial.. din really put in much effort..
feeling lazy... haha.. feel like playing back maple in aq.. but quite dumb if i do so..
ytd went pitstop at clark quay.. that place similar to settlers.. play 'i'm the boss' game there.. haha... den me n yue shun kip helping jason.. den he won the game with 70m.. lol..
was fun ytd at pitstop.. like i alway felt.. when i with my frens i alway have a enjoyable time..
den we left the place around 10+ den went home.. while taking nel mrt home, i saw selina on train.. haha.. long time nv see her.. n her bro, stanley.. one of my closest buddy in sec sch.. but i seems to have lost my sec sch contacts already... jus nice jus now yao zhong sms me ask me sunday wan go sentosa for 5a1 gathering.. lol.. finally can attend the class gathering... but i think i going over late... as sat nite will be at danielle's place for MA bbq! wahaha.. looking forward to it..

tmr probably going morgan hse to stay over.. n watch man utd match with rongde and yongjie at morgan hse.. haha.. his hse got projector screen.. lol.. think later i ask him again.. cos if going over nid to bring many stuffs.. haha... some more tmr got training.. like got many things to bring.. nid bring laptop for IB tutorial some more... dam man.. i dun feel like bringing.. haha...

omg, i'm loving tis tu amor song..

tired..

2007-04-29T12:29:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired now... ytd spent the morning in sch... n rest of the day at sentosa..
went there play soccer,volleyball and frisbie... end up so tired...
after all the activities at sentosa, we went to vivo to eat... due to the many people we have..
we brought food den we ate at the roof area... quite nice.. haha... can see the sky... although no stars... after we finish eating den we were chatting and having fun... haha... love those days..
everytime with my friends i feel so happy and enjoyable...

ytd morning had MC interview in sch.. lol... at first quite relax when i go into the room...
den got stunned by the first question peifen ask... totally shocked...
cos i din attach photo on the registration paper... den i sat down.. she ask:" why din u attach ur photo on the application form? Do u think it's not necessary or is it redundant?"
i was totally stunned.. haha.. some more she look so stern when she ask...
den i replied, when i had my SCO interview last yr i had attached a photo already. n furthermore we had work tgr for the past 1 yr so i think there's no nid for me to attach a photo..
haha... quite scare already.. den wan qi. laugh say i scare already.. lol... den i laugh abit den more relax.. den the rest of the interview was quite relax... i find it fun actually.. haha.. cos i feel tat if cant get in MC also nvm.. cos i still can help out even if i'm not in BA Society... haha.. like wad yongjie alway do..

skin getting dry... haha... got tanned too much ytd.. but i think not as bad as the rest of them.. all look like lobster last nite.. haha.. made a few new friends ytd... got some yr1 quite enthu.. hopefully they get involve in society.. cos they are suitable candidates.. aha... 1week later will noe if got get in MC or not.. but i dun carry much hopes.. cos got a lot stronger candidates n i dun really mind if i dun get in.. think later i go get a short nap.. den wake up do tutorials.. feeling lazy le... maybe dun wan go out later... haha..

thanks ben and wenzhong for the concern u guys show.. appreciate it.. u 2 are really nice seniors.. aha... c u guys soon again before u all go NS n botak island..

...

2007-04-26T22:50:00.000+08:00

ytd had training.. not really training i should say... more of eyeing for new talent for the table tennis team.. well.. not many are gd.. but at least got a few who noe how to play... but i'm disappointed with myself... cos i had become very lousy.. totally different from wad i was 2/3 mths ago.. haha.. probably i m worst den some of the yr1 who jus joined...

today is a bad day.. a bad bad day for many people i suppose... everything start to goes wrong in the morning.. listening to 9.33.... news, liverpool lost chelsea 1-0.. i was cursing chelsea in my heart... but tis nvm.. i was cool with it... when i reach the bus stop, a single deck 74 came, being experienced, i suspect it to be full packed... n like wad i expected.. it din even open its dam door when it stop at the bus stop to let off some passenger... but it's ok.. the time at the point of time is 8.40am.. i was cool with it too.. dun mind waiting for the next bus.. as i waited... 20mins gone.. a double deck 74 came... time now: 9.10am, as expected, fully packed.. i knew i was going to be late for my IS class... but praying the next bus come soon n got space, so wont be more den 15mins late for class... as i waited.. roughly at 9.30, another 74 came.. fully pack.. at tis point of time, i got a bit frustrated... i scan the situation n realise two poly looking guys who had waited with me for the past 40mins had decided to take cab... and a girl went up to them to share the cab as she's going SIM for exam.. i start to think if i should take cab.. i decided to wait some more.. but when the time reach 9.40am, i couldnt take it! i approach them n ask if ngee ann poly was on the way.. lol... desperate already had to share cab with total stranger... so the 4 of us, standing near the bus stop trying to flag a cab.. n for some dam freakin bad day, there's no available cab... at tis point of time, the SIM girl who had exam is almost bursting into tears.. think she probably taking biz law exam, saw her textbk... she decided to give up on the cab and went off.. hopefully she din did anything silly.. so left the 3 of us, 2 np 1 sp.. we waited for awhile more.. den came bus 165.. so we decided to take it n go serangoon north to take cab as there's more cab there... upon reaching, we waited desperately for another 15mins... time now: 10.30am.. (for ur info, my class starts at 10am) n jus nice yongjie called a cab, n he's taking it near the place we r waiting for cab.. so i told the 2 guys let's go over to find him den we take there.. so the cab came like almost 10.40am... we took the cab.. reached ngee ann around 11.05am.. den chiong to vin enterprise to photocopy notes.. den chiong to class.. lol.. walk into class.. the tutor is at the last slide of the lesson.. we sat down.. n class ended... the only fortunate thing tat happened today is tat the tutor let me n yongjie mark our attendance.. lol...

after all my classes which end like 3+pm, we went to lib n slack.. den 5pm onwards we play boardgames in the new room at lib... play till 8+ den left... reached home.. bath.. online... haha.. all hopes are dashed yet had to act positive.. probably it sum up a bad day.. hopefully no more bad things happen... but dun look like... my printer ink seems to be dying.. dammit.. pls let me finish printing my notes first!

wad an "amazing" day i had.. fuck it.. i dun curse often on blog.. but pls let me do so for tis once.

2007-04-23T20:58:00.000+08:00

i guess it's time for me to stop n take a breath..
it's time to really sit down n think of my future..
i noe i had did something terribly bad recently.. but if i nv do it i will feel worse..
i cant face u if i were to take it tat nth had happen.. i noe wad i say now also wont make u feel any better.. all i can do now is apologise which i noe u wouldnt want any either...

i really nid a break myself also.. after so many things tat happen in such a short span of time, i nid a break.. i wanna rest... things happen the way i expected it to be.. the bad way.. should i say tis is one of the most interesting part of my life i had ever experienced.. ups and downs in such a short span of time.. being able to bring MA to be the best OG is one of the happiest/biggest thing i had achieved.. yet problems flood in after baoc.. i'm coping with it.. well.. i hope..

certain things tat happen disappoints me, but i can accept it.. cos i noe where i stand.. n as long as the one is happy it will be good enough already.. (peiwen, i not referring to u for not wanting to be sco, i absolutely respect ur decision. i talking abt other things..)

life now is pretty bland n simple.. everyday come home do tutorial, print notes for next day lecture.. go msn talk crap n slp.. weekend will probably be occupied by family n friends.. whom i had neglected for some time.. family is really impt.. friends too.. i really love my friends and family.. it's them who made me who i am today..

although life's tough now.. but i can manage.. dun worry abt me... if u noe me long enough u would noe i will forget all unhappiness as long as i wan to... take cares all my dear friends and family..

2007-04-21T18:02:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry. but it wasnt easy for me to tell u tat let's just be friends..
i have my reasons for doing so..
i rather hurt u now den to hurt u even more in future...
i cant lie to myself n force myself to carry on.. by doing so, i would have hurt u even more..

i'm truly sorry.

2007-04-21T13:14:00.000+08:00

wadever tat had happened recently had made me realise i have to cherish my mom a lot.. for all the love n care she had given me, there's nth i can do in return for tat... i wanna cherish her as much as i can.. i wanna spend quality time with her.. she had been really nice to me and to think back i haven been the best son i could have been to her.. for all the mistakes i made and made her lost her temper, i felt bad thinking back now.. i will do my best to make up for all the love my mom had given me.. mommy i love u.. though i noe u wont be reading tis..

as time goes by, i feel more sure of my decision..
thank u to those who had been showing concern for me, especially those who noe wad's bothering me.. thank u friends who had been so great throughout my poly life.. u guys made a difference in my life.. poly would be dead boring without all of u.. i love u all my frens.. thank u

looking forward to a new life.. hope everything will be fine..

2007-04-19T23:23:00.000+08:00

i think i roughly have a decision.. but since u wan me to tell u on wed.. den i will tell u on wed...
still will think thru for tis few days...

family... problematic... i cant see anything positive... really hope nth will happen...

i miss the baoc days... miss my SCs.. miss doing the work... i think it is the most meaningful part of my life to be a sco... nothing can be compared to it... hope to be able to see most of my sc present for bbq.. n hopefully the freshies will come too...

thx wini mei for lending me ur listening ears..

i m feeling so tired... tired of wad's happening...
i nid a break..

2007-04-18T17:59:00.000+08:00

i dun wan to hurt anyone but i had obviously hurted u..
i'm at lost of wad to do.. i dunno how to continue like tis..
i dun wan to make a decision now n den change my mind again..
the problem lies with me.. not u... i think tis is my weakness..
i cant make decisions.. i jus cant make up my mind now..
5mths long.. but yet i'm feeling lost now.. i kept thinking
on bed before slp i think, on the way to sch i think.. i kip thinking..
yet i cant reach an answer.. i dun wan to hurt u.. seriously..
i cant stop myself from feeling tis way.. it doesnt feel good and i'm sure u dun feel gd too...
i myself now feeling so confused...

my family have got probs.. i dunno wad will happen also...
hao fan ah!

2007-04-17T20:37:00.000+08:00

my mind is in a state of confusion.. i think it's the main source of distraction even during lecture..
i feel super sleepy during lectures man.. try very hard to kip my eyes open.. but kip closing eyes too.. ever since during the 4th or 5th week of baoc preparation tis had been bothering me.. i tot after baoc it would be ok.. but it dun seems so.. ever since baoc ended i jus cant fall straight to sleep when i lie on my bed.. i'm suppose to be super slpy.. yet my mind will wonder n wonder for a long time before i finally go to dream land.. i m lost myself.. can i bring myself to a decision? a decision i wont regret? i seriously dunno.. should i leave things as it is? or maybe things should change?

confused winson.

Mythical Atlantis

2007-04-14T15:27:00.000+08:00

Hurray! Mythical Atlantis Best OG group..
I feel so proud to be the SCO for MA..
Thank you all my SCs for making this possible..
i really appreciate all the effort u guys had put in..
all the hard work put in is really worth it..
i see the freshies enjoying themselves.. i see the SCs having fun
i feel so happy for them.. i feel happy for myself too..
seeing all the hard work all the sweat all the tears had not gone to waste..

the journey of a SCOs is tough, but it had definitely been fun and one which i will remember for life... i want to thank jason, christina and tommy for giving me a chance to be a SCO.. i hope i had not let u guys down and thanks for being so sweet for making all the SCOs each an award..
i'm sure all the SCOs feel great being part of the SCOs family.. and jason thank u for having faith in me and thanks for all the encouragement.. if not for you, we might not had been the best og.. it's you who inspired me to join as SCO and for that you had changed my life.. i really enjoyed every moment spent with everyone in society.. i'm sure i will nv be able to forget all this.. i want to thank all the SCOs for playing such a big part to make this friendship among us such a wonderful one.. you guys will alway be my friends n i definitely wont forget all of u.. i had learn plenty from all of u and thanks for helping me when i had difficulties..

to christina boss, thank u for understanding the SCOs.. we had gave u plenty of headaches but each time u still stand by us and support us.. sorry for all the trouble we gave u but i'm sure the SCOs had not let u down at the end of the day and we are definitely all ur precious SCOs =D

to my partner mori and jerel. thanks for the fantastic partnership, i had learn many thing from u guys... jerel u had been fantastic as an ASCO and for me u r definitely the best asco.. thank u for the commitment u have put in. i really hope u can takeover our role as SCO n join society next year.. it may be a tough journey but i'm sure it promises lots of fun and learning experiences as well. i can see u being a great SCO so do give it a thought as to whether u want to continue as SCO or not..
ty mori for all these while, being my classmate,project mate, SCO partner. working together in so many different things had let me learn a lot from u.. sorry if we couldnt work well at times but i'm sure we had the best interest of MA in mind.. 1 more year as classmate ahead.. see u in lecture n class! =)

To my SCs, u guys had put in plenty of effort.. some of u had contributed a lot a lot to make this possible.. hope u guys had enjoyed the process and most imptly take care and take more rest.. drink more water to get back ur voice k.. Good job guys, without u guys we wouldnt have become the best although we are the smallest group.

Love Mythical Atlantis and everyone of Mythical Atlantis!

sorry to those whom i have neglected throughout this period of time..

2007-04-08T10:56:00.000+08:00

things certainly has changed over this 1 mth.
how should i say.. i jus feel like a different person now..
i feel like the gap between us had become bigger..
like wad u said, we got nth much to say to each other now..
i dun wan things to be like tat..

i had been busy with my orientation stuffs.. it means a lot to me..
i wan to be a gd SCO to my SCs and they mean a lot to me also..
i became a SCO as i really enjoy it when i do the orientation preparation..
n most importantly, is becos jason inspired me..
i wan to do a good job as a SCO, i dun wan to let jason down..
i wan to make MJ-ians n now MA-ians proud..
i wan to be one of the best group for the orientation..
even if cant get top 3, as long as my SCs enjoyed the process i'm happy too..
for the past 5 weeks, i have devoted my time to this orientation..
i work all day to make sure everything is in order..
sometime i can feel the stress.. i sit down n i feel helpless at times..
but i noe, as a SCO i have to overcome it..
i have to lead my SCs, get things done and more imptly my SCs respect us..
as time goes.. i can say i have many gd SCs, i can see their commitment..
i really appreciate it.. and i wan to thank my SCs.. though i dun think they have my blog add.
will consider disclosing my blog add..

i wan to apologise for wad is happening now..
we had been tgr for 5mths.. yet now, i dun have confidence..
especially this period of time.. i dunno how to tell u how i feel..
but definitely i'm disappointed... i think tis all this feeling start to grow when u ask for break up the 2nd time.. i have tried very hard to put it behind me..
but i realise i cant.. our gap grow bigger n bigger especially now i'm so busy..
i have to tell u the truth.. some times i really dunno wad i'm thinking..
sometime i really feel like giving up... but i also wan to stay on
i noe u arent feeling gd either.. rmb u ask me not long ago, whether avoiding me is a good solution.. i told myself dun give up yet.. i tried.. i tried very hard..
but it jus cant be the same as the past..
i'm sorry to say all these... i jus hope when orientation over things will be better..
but also.. i dun wan u to suffer.. if u choose to let go i wont stop u...

z

2007-03-31T00:09:00.000+08:00

i dunno y.. i feel like now the prob is with me.. i really dunno y..
i have plenty of things going thru my mind...
especially orientation and darling...
i just feel different now... i dunno y also.. i'm sorry darling
i dunno wad's wrong with me now... gimme some time to be back to normal..

hacker

2007-03-29T01:03:00.000+08:00

My conversation with the hacker who hacked my email.
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it said:oi
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it said:y u hack my account
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it said:who the hell r u
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it said:wad for hack my account?
* Love my baby tigger says:stupid ji bai kia...cause u are stupid,i hack ur acc..bo song,fight lo
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it says:lol... so gd at hacking come hack my new account too
Love my baby tigger says:=/=" i not so free...next time ba...hahas,curse more...
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it says:lol.. too noob to be hacker?
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it says:so gd at hacking might as well hack my new email also.. since u free enough to hack the account u using now
Love my baby tigger says:wad's so bad abt noob? everyone's noob...u think u so pro meh?Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it says:wadever lol.. noob hacker
Love my baby tigger says:loser...LOL
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it says:wadever... i have long wanted to change email.. thanks for motivating me to create a new account
Love my baby tigger says:dun mention it...mr wadeva guy...so loose de
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it says:better den u.. nth better to do..
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it says:too bored with ur life?
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it says:y dun u try go jumping down the hdb flat
Love my baby tigger says:hahas...too bad,i dun do silly things...u can go n try...TOL
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it says:lol.. but i tot u do stupid things like hacking.. maybe some day u will try jumping.. who noes
Love my baby tigger says:it's fun to hack ur acc only...too bad,only god n i know i wont try jumping...u wanna try ar?
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it says:lol.. anyway.. gd try.. only loner like u will wan to hack people email.. cos i think ur msn u got no frens
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it says:so u wan to find my frens to chat
Winson here. my old email winsonlsk_87@hotmail.com is being hacked. pls ignore any msg or emails from it says:lol

no more reply from here onwards.. think the hacker cant stand me irritating him and went off!
or maybe he went to cry cos i exposed the fact that he's a loner! LOL

dun understand

2007-03-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

i dun understand... is it really my mistake?
i mean y... this is the 2nd time u ask for a break up..
i noe we both are busy with our own stuffs..
i noe u r stress, i noe we neglect each other...
but r/s is like tat.. we cant spend every sec together..
i feel so fallen when u ask for break up again...
i dunno how to say how i feel? i mean..
i dun wish to break up? but at the same time if breaking up really can make u feel better i willing to break up.. but i dun wan u to regret after a few days...
i dun wish our relationship to come to an end like tat..
is it worth it? its almost 5months... u can give up everything like tat?
if u can do it without regretting, i will learn to let u go..
but be true to urself..

2007-03-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

dammit man... i realise i prefer Mr jalal way of handling the table tennis club..
the new advisor totally dam it... so demanding....
wan so many things from me... nid send her this send her tat.. troublesome..
today just kanna scold from her... damn lo... sort of scold only.. but i dun like the way she talk to me.. she talk as if i dun wan send her the files.. basket..
the thing is my laptop is with acer.. how the hell i send her.. tmd..
hopefully tmr can get back my laptop... den can backup everything to my desktop
i realise no backup very jialat.. end up everything screw up...
i hate my neew cca advisor... how i wish they just close down table tennis..
i got enough cca points already.. at least a silver for cca.. so doesn't matters to me if yr3 i got cca or not..
now patching audition... so long... slow man.... sian....

new comp

2007-03-27T12:33:00.000+08:00

woohoo.. long time nv blog.. now i using my new desktop to blog
hahaha.. brought a HP desktop.. nice man... my hse the desktop finally change.. after 8 yrs..
anyone interested in pentium 3 acer comp? lol.. guess only karung guni will wan it..
spent some time setting up the comp... finally got it working.. now dl-ing all the programs i wan..
later when finish setting up my comp i think i go sch ba.. since its still early.. haha
blog again when i'm free.. cya some other times..

2007-03-19T20:32:00.000+08:00

long time din blog le.. cos quite busy..
recently everyday go back sch from mon to fri
so quite busy with the baoc preparation...
den today just met the new advisor for table tennis
gotta submit lotsa stuffs to her by this week.. sian..
stressful... trying to cope with everything...
sometimes i cant stand it den quite harsh to people around me..
especially darling. i'm sorry for being harsh to u..
i promise i will try to cope with everything n be better..

baoc getting nearer n nearer... 2weeks plus left...
hopefully can meet all the deadlines and things go smoothly..
sometimes i feel so tired sia.. to be frank now i'm praying tat v few year1 wan to join table tennis
den i can suggest to advisor to close table tennis.. wahaha.. =x
cos if no yr 1 come in n continue to no coach, i dun see the point in having this cca..
what for have a cca, hanging on a rope, wan to die dun wan die like tat..
i mean all gd players who wanna win sure go nyp/sp..
those who wan study come my sch.. since they wan study they dun join table tennis..
so np is like no reputation for tt.. like no point hanging onto it..
we want coach but sch policy is tat only can employ coach few weeks before ivp..
den wad's the point? few weeks can improve a lot? haha..
alrite.. how the sch function is not my prob.. all i noe is i got my cca pts..
at least got silver already.. so yr 3 can relax n study hard!
nid to spend more time on studying le... last sem gt 3.3.. quite an encouragement for myself.

sunday morning went to see a doctor... to check my skin..
doctor say it's superficious(wadever it's spelt) fungus.. prescibed medi for me..
he say the medi eat for 3 weeks.. den will be ok.. but the skin colour will take time to heal..
i knew it's not serious all along.. haha.. my mom make it sound so serious kip nagging.. zz..

i want:
-to learn to control my temper n be more patience.. =)
-to be a deem as a gd SCO for my SCs
-be a better person..

sux

2007-03-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

Long time nv blog le.. going to blog abt my results…
HRM – A
CMA – B
ECD – B
BLAW - B
FMGT – B+

GPA 3.3

First time in poly my gpa exceed 3.. lol.. finally…
Willing to work harder for the last yr…
Gonna appeal for HRM, cos I chose entre option previously
Now nid go appeal for HRM instead..
Nid type a letter and den pass to the director…
Ma fan.. dunno wad to type.. but have to type..
I dun wan to end up in entre class…

Now, I’m with darling in library.. I made her angrySucks… I hate this.

2007-03-02T11:59:00.000+08:00

long time din blog le.. haha.. quite lazy
had been mapling.. slacking...
baoc coming le.. gonna go back to sch 10am-5pm every week day
finally it's here.. wed was the first meeting with the SCs
after the briefing we had discussion abt the IDs etc etc..
aha.. hopefully the same amount of people will turn up for the rest of the orientation also..

hopefully later or tmr can mit up with darling..
like so long din see her le... darling i miss u so much!
hehe.. its our 4th month together le.. =DD

zz.. now i gt no hp... hp with my dad.. his phone the screen spoil again
den while the hp is being repaired, he is using my hp..
later when my mom is home.. nid use her phone...
cos the person suppose to call me when the phone is done..
i gt my sim card.. but no phone.. actually tot can use my old old old nokia hp
but realise the battery is dead.. or maybe the phone is dead. either way..

my holiday is coming to an end.. due to baoc.. lol...
everyday go back school.. wahaha...
i like it.. cos baoc is the big ting... i wan make it a successful 1..
hopefully things go smoothly n may all obstacle be overcome by
Mythical Altantis! <<<>

to be continued.
(some other time when i'm not lazy =x)

thurs

2007-02-22T13:07:00.000+08:00

i seems to be enjoying my life now.. wahaa...
eat play slp eat play slp.. =x.... but now can enjoy muz enjoy..
if not i think march i will be dam busy with orientation stuffs..
maple lvl 97 ,86%... after blogging going to chiong lvl up...
den at night muz try lvl 99.. so tmr can 100...

my hse got so many tibits.. zz... dunno how to finish..
so many packets... but i will try finish everything.. lol...
sat going to sch for meeting.. wonder how long it will take...
sunday, my dad bringing bro going to bai tai sui...
hopefully they dun drag me along.. haha... i v lazy...

ytd train my char train till wan fall asleep man... zz..
1+ i almost close my eyes.. lol.. force myself to train...
den ytd died 2 times.. zz.. if not ytd i can lvl up...
so i decided to buy charm... dun wan waste my time trainin den die..
dunno wad to type le..

i miss u darling..

wed

2007-02-21T12:33:00.000+08:00

woohoo.. time past so fast.. i hope it wont past fast now
holiday holiday holiday... aww.. i wanna enjoy tis holiday..
n i'm enjoying it.. wahha... chu 2 went watch ghost rider with dar..
the show quite nice.. the story line not bad...
den ytd went watch twins mission with dar also.. hehe..
i insisted on watching de.. wahha... cos i like twins' movie..
the show was great... i like tis kind of action pack movie.. haha..
i suppose twins mission got part 2 ba... cos the movie got no ending..
looking forward to the release of part 2..

jus now i vacuum n mop the floor.. lol.. so guai sia.. haha
after i done with the chores n bath my mom called...
n ask me vacuum the floor.. lol.. i told her already vacuum n mop..
haha.. well well... now my char lvl 96, 75%.. later maple server done..
i going play n chiong.. wan to lvl 97 asap.. den tonight chiong 98 =x..
den hopefully fri can 100... gan ma coming back on sunday.. yea..
lookin forward to go her hse.. cos she renovated her hse to make it a home beauty parlour.
she use to have a shop at dhoby ghuat.. but sold the shop to her fren i think..
den start her own shop at home.. haha... not bad...

tis sat going back sch for BA Society meeting..
i guess its about the orientation stuffs.. =)
finally its here.. my main purpose of joining society is for tis orientation..
hopefully my SCs are very helpful.. haha.. already got to get hold of a few of them..
as in tis few are more chattable... n promised to help out during orientation.. wahha
got one is call winifred.. zz... her older bro name jus nice is same as me also..
den she call me korkor.. haha... i have gt a mei! lol..

i have decided to put in more effort in my studies.. lol..
well.. it have been many times i made that decision..
but alway got distracted by temptation such as games.. n LAZINESS.. lol..
i shall play till i shiok tis holiday.. n work hard when sch reopens..

missing u~

2007-02-17T13:48:00.000+08:00

first of all.. HAPPY CNY EVE TO ALL
=D i'm so happy.. happy tat everything is in place...
exams are over.. alrite man! n i'm more confident abt tis yr exams
ytd during dinner, my mum ask me tis time exam got better?
i told her should be better den last time...
hopefully ba.. =D quite confident i wont have any Ds...
hmm... but i dun mind if got ADs.. lol..
i think mostly will be either B or B+..
of maybe C+ come to the worst...
maybe will have A also.. haa.. maybe..

ytd play maple till 2am.. lvl up to 93...
aiming to be lvl 100 in 1 week time.. haha
before gan mama come back from bangkok.. lol
dun let her chase my lvl.. zz.. cos she suddenly so fast...

today whole morning helping my mama...
help cook the food.. wahaha... i master chef...
my mama assistant... lol...
after cooking all the delicious food..
my mama vacuum the floor while i mop...

yea... feel my hse so clean now.. haha... n happy!
cos i feel so relax now... holidays... holidays...
YAY! wahaha... but soon... nid to prepare for orientation..
well.. nvm... cos i'm sure it's going to be a fun process..
but... sry darling.. cos i noe i will be v busy... den might neglect u..
hope u can understand =) i'm sure u can.. hehe....

best wishes to all for the new yr..
may all good things come n all bad goes..
n most imptly, ang bao little nvm.. inside $$ muz a lot..
stay happy everyone.. =))

love darling..
muacks..

MAPLE TIME~!

2007-02-15T21:15:00.000+08:00

today morning i was still worried...
but my mood become very happy
when i recieve darling's sms.. hehe
i m really happy really happy...
i'm so glad tat that everything is fine now
jus take it tat we had a nightmare ytd.. =)
like wad shuyu jie say.. let bygones be bygones..
=D
tmr last paper.. after tat going ys...
to mit darling awhile, n pass her a foolscrap..
suppose to pass her quite long ago.. haha..
due to my forgetfulness.. till now the foolscrap still with me..
FINALLY EXAMS COMING TO AN END..
so far all the papers ok... hopefully
hrm paper will be a breeze too...
jus finish writing the notes not long ago...
tmr morning den memorise everything since the paper is in noon.

I FEEL THAT I M A FORTUNATE GUY
BECAUSE HEAVEN BESTOWED U UPON ME
I M SO HAPPY!
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING DARLING
WITH U BY MY SIDE
EVERYTHING LOOKS SO NICE
I WILL CHERISH U MORE N MORE
AS EACH DAY PASSES BY
FOREVER LOVING U DARLING!
MUACKS.
YONG YUAN AI ZHE NI.

LOVE YUNN FOREVER.

2007-02-15T10:35:00.000+08:00

last nite was a terrible one..
i hope it doesnt happen again..
thank u for taking back wad u said..
u may not nid my thank u.. but i really appreciate it
i hope u noe how much i nid u..
pls dun leave me again.. i dun wish to feel wad i felt last nite.
it was terrible... really terrible.. i'm sure u felt it too..

i will cherish u even more n nv hurt u.
loving u alway.

2007-02-14T21:01:00.000+08:00

At this very moment, i ask myself wat did i do wrong
y is heaven punishing me... y is this happening...
i cant accept wad is happening.. i cant...
i'm losing... losing some one whom i love most..
i'm scare... really scare... i dun wan tis to happen...
i wont be able to take such a blow...
i tell myself i have to be strong... i cant lose..
becos i cannot afford to... i noe if i lose.. i cant take it
i can lose everything... but i cant lose u... i really cant...
pls... heaven... do not take away her from me on tis very day..
n dun ever take her away from me.. i beg u...

falling me...

2007-02-14T20:25:00.000+08:00

i really dunno y such a nice day become like tat..
how did i ruined it..
sighs... wad can i say... i'm so fk up by myself..
i hate this.. really hate it...

i was so worried tat u so late den reach home..
when u finally call me i was so happy.. but
u were crying on phone.. it hurts me.. really it does..
i really din mean tat u r wrong...
I M SORRY.
I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO HAVE UR FORGIVENESS.

if i did something wrong, pls forgive me..
sighs....

ah~

2007-02-14T17:31:00.000+08:00

ah~ finally eh? left with 1 last paper..
felt a sigh of relief when i read thru the blaw questions in the morning
glad tat wad i was able to memorise came out..
although not 100% everything i noe..
but i'm pretty sure of 80 of the questions...
well.. with my answering skills, perhaps i can get at least 70% out of this paper..
tat's an A! but i suppose my blaw project+common test+class participation
i probably get a C+ or B...
well.. fine with me.. cos blaw is really a killer paper...

Oh ya~ today is a special day.. Happy Valentines Day to all
although i spent the day with exams. and boredom at home
i dun mind. although i wished i could be with darling now..
its ok. i can understand =)
everyday is valentines for u(my dar) n me =D
hehe... agree?

Fri gonna be the last paper! HRM~ woohoo.. one of my fav module
but final exam like so many theory to memorise also..
i nid to delete blaw from my brain... taking too much brain space
den will have enough space to save hrm theory inside.. haha...
hopefully tis sem i can get more As... n Bs... n get a GPA of at least 3..
=/ my gpa for past sems really kns... 2.5 average.. zz...
and i cant stand it when people suddenly become hardworking n score so well.
call it sour grapes or wad... but i realise things have changed
ever since Y had become extremely hardworking..
well.. kudos to Y for being so hardworking.. u gain some u lose some.

Considering whether wan to go back MJS/MSS on fri before my paper..
scare will be too rush eh... hmm hmm... dunno should go or not...
blah.. finish my hrm revision den decide...

Specially for u=)
Missing u~
Love Choco bao bei.
Happy 1st Valentines Day =D

done with cma

2007-02-07T11:59:00.000+08:00

=D finally done with cma.. guess i'm quite well prepared for it already...
now nid to revise fmgt... but currently in slacking mode.. haha...
nid a break... tempted to play game le.. haha... maybe play game for awhile
later start revision for fmgt le..

wee

2007-02-06T23:24:00.000+08:00

yay.. today i so guai... morning wake up after having breakfast
i started revising for cma... getting the hang of it =))
happy.. cos i can do the past yrs exam questions..
wahaha... hopefully exam also the question same same.. den song
den i revise about 5 hours i went to run... after runnin
i came home slack n bath... den play maple while watch tv...
den i went to eat my dinner den back to tv/maple again...
trained abt 30% today... lol... shiok man... after exams if got time
den chiong le... now muz study... think tmr i can finish
all the past yr exams paper i have for cma
after tat i can start my fmgt... financial management...
think tis weekend only sat is available for darling..
hopefully u sat free ba.. cos sunday i nid revise my fmgt..
the paper for fmgt is on monday... yup.. so hope u free on sat...
fri is the release of O lvls result.. haha... hopefully those people
around me get gd results! especially my sab mei, she so smart la..
zz... she tell me she wanna be doctor.. lol... not bad.. next time see doc
got discount maybe free also.. hahaha.... den shu zhen also getting her result..
today afternoon went maple to take a break off my studies i saw shuzhen..
lol.. long time nv talk to her... forgot she also O lvl.. haah... hope both of them do well ba..
and darling i hope u do well for ur tests too.. =)
muz jia you for ur N lvls followed by ur O lvls.. u can do it!
believe in ur ability... jus like me.. haa...
i hate accounting subjects... but i realise it arent tat difficult afterall..
i manage to do the past yr exams questions n get the right answers..
i'm sure u can do well as long as u believe in urself...
but of cos believing in urself is not enough.. u nid to strive towards it too..
muz jia you! =))

i love u darling.
miss u..

cma

2007-02-05T22:17:00.000+08:00

today morning woke up... sort of lai chuang first.. haha
lazy to wake up...cos wake up muz study...
after wake up i try to do cma questions...
but i cant get the ans right for flexible budgeting...
hopefully i can figure it out soon ba...
after tat i slacked whole day... lol...
but at least that sense of urgency is coming...
tired man... i dunno y i so slpy... jus now i slp 1hr plus
now still slpy.. zzz... i think tmr i nid buy eye mo...
my left eye had been twitching for a few days le
i hope it doesnt mean anything bad... but today better le
ytd kept twitching... kip on rub till the eye quite dry...
oh yea.. man utd ytd won 4-0... wahaha... nice 1...
blah... i dunno wad else to type le... bored... think i shall try to slp
yawns... bb everyone.. =)

2007-02-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

met darling today.. =) like finally...
haa... brought her a baby pacifier.. lol
she was surprised =)) tat's the purpose.. haa
today my breakfast n lunch both at mcdonald...
big breakfast... filet-o-fish meal..
the filet-o-fish meal is free... cos mama use singtel top up card
den can use the card to redeem free mcchicken/filet-o-fish meal
got 2 card... so i use 1 card for darling.. 1 for myself...
she ate mcchicken... i ate filet-o-fish.. haha...
tmr onwards really nid to start mugging...
fri is CMA... dam accounting modules.... but i MUZ overcome tis
i aiming for a B+.. wahhaa... hopefully wont end up with D =.="

after putting that sentence on my msn nick
only 2 people came msg me tell me they r of cos my true fren
thanks a lot.. =) to rd & m... not naming them here in order to
minimise the chances of people searching my blog.. haa
i dun wan people whom i are not close to me noe my blog..

well... time to celebrate? Singapore beat thailand 2-1 in the first leg
n jus now singapore drew 1-1 with thailand for 2nd leg...
cool huh... retaining the title... i suppose the players muz be
extremely happy now... from young till now... i only won
a medal as a team... ever since tat i dun seems to be able to be in a gd team
i won nationals 4th for cricket in pri sch....
but wad matters to me now is tat i can win something tat is related to TT
and is not individual... but it seems to be something tat's impossible to achieve
in NP.. the standard of players here are jus not gd enough..
am i foolish? indeed i m... hinted by coach to join SP who got 2nd for POLITE, 4th in IVP..
hinted by xi gua to join NYP who got 1st in POLITE, 3rd in IVP...
y didnt i go to either poly? due to a moment of foolish...
a decision i truly regret... if i had chosen SP.. i could have a national youth training with me..
if i had chosen NYP, i would have 3 china guy to train with me...
and further more.. most of my sec sch fren are in NYP...
well well... too late to regret huh? but nvm...
at least i noe np arent tat bad... i'm sure the education i got here
is far more better den i could have in other poly..
i'm glad i made frens like rd n m... poly life would definitely be blank
without them... and most imptly. though society is not my priority..
i feel tat i had enjoy much fun with these people inside...
although certain time, it's quite $$ taxing... pocket got burnt due to
the need of buying shirts for events... but well... tat expand my np shirt inventory..
lol... i guess next sem, i would be president for the tt club..
but seriously, i think i might not have wad it takes to be 1...
hopefully, i could get more help from yh even after she grad..
or else i m dead meat!.. haa... pretty long post today?
aha.. my life is kinda boring... if u had read until here..
great job.. n thx for reading.. =) u r 1 great _______ of mine.
fill in the blank urself ba... haa... could be jie/cousin/darling. i suppose no other choices needed.
yay! tmr finally i can eat bread with kaya with butter / peanut! waha
i planning to cook a feast for myself during CNY..
dunno if someone got the luck to enjoy it or not.. lol...
after my exam on fri i think i will go ntuc n shop.. haa.. shop for my feast..
alrite... getting late... shall go slp now.. tmr wake up chiong CMA(cost & managerial account)

Go like a CHAMPION!
GO! GO!
Fight like a CHAMPION!
FIGHT! FIGHT!
GO like a CHAMPION
FIGHT like a CHAMPION
All the rest can go FLY KITE!
Fly Kite~ Fly Kite~
All the rest can go Fly Kite~
Later kanna lightning strike~
Ha~ HaHa~

2007-01-31T11:30:00.000+08:00

i'm in sch lib now....
wahaha.... decided to come sch study as i cant study at home
ytd suppose to study.. ended up playing maple...
ytd morning woke up den go play maple..
den went downstairs buy breakfast.. n eat...
den reached home n slept.. lol.. like pig....
den woke up le went play maple again... play till 6+pm
den dun wan play.. rest n watch tv, bath till 9+pm
den went back maple again... i play till 3 like tat..
n i finally lvled... LOL.. after like 3/4 mths i finally lvl my hermit..
now lvl 92... think i shall continue with my hermit ba...
8 more lvls to 100.. but now cannot play le... nid to revise
for exams.... 9th feb cma, 12 feb fmgt, 14 feb blaw, 16 feb hrm..
out of all 4 i love hrm n blaw the most.. cos is theory jus nid to memorise..
cma n fmgt got calculation etc etc... sucks...
after finish blogging going to start my fmgt revision...
den later should be meeting lala for lunch...
provided she got come la...
my face the skin is dropping... tearing...
so dry now... hope it faster drop finish...
now i look like dunno wad sia... the face.. zzz....
looking forward to after exams... den i can relax...
n collect $$ lol... CNY coming.. but tis yr CNY like got no mood like tat..
dun have tat festival mood... like nth like tat...
after exam relax awhile den nid to start the baoc preparation le..
den will be v busy with it...
hope i will have gd SCs den my job can be more simple

time to start revising!

2007-01-29T20:06:00.000+08:00

today went to sch to play soccer... suppose to meet at 10am... den end up a lot people came late... den got people playing at the court... we waited like 30mins to play... the sun so tanning... now i think i look like crab which is jus cooked... i waited almost 1 hr +++ to play... zzz.... before i play already like bbq pig...

den i play 1 match only... cos the rest dun wan continue play in sch cos too many team waiting to play... den actually jason say go clementi play.... actually clementi i dun mind... but den they change to tiong bahru.. >< so far leh... den i tell jason too far for me... so nv join them... den i slack at canteen 1 awhile den decided to come home n slp cos getting rather slpy...

ytd went to amk to study with dar... suppose to study... haha... end up nv really study... n sotong came to look for us... after tat we went to eat dinner tgr.. den follow sotong to x zone to look for his fren.. but his fren like nv care her when she reach there...

my face feeling a bit itch... think my face too dry liao... tmr sure skin peel le... leg also got a bit of abrasion.. if today run a bit more i think got blister liao..haha... argh... i dunno whether to play dit or mit...

2007-01-27T23:04:00.000+08:00

Brought a new pair of shoe for CNY. the moment i saw tis shoe i told myself i wan it as long as the price is not too exhorbitant.. Spent $300 like tat buying all my NY stuffs... brought 3 giordano dri fit polo t... 1 giordano bermudas, 1 s+k jeans, 1 adidas shorts, 1 nike top.. like not much things... but cost a lot.. ><

thanks darling for pei-ing me shop half a day... i noe u r v tired... sorry... u wan buy shoe den end up nv buy... ZZZ... ask u buy den dun wan buy... ><>

2007-01-27T09:03:00.000+08:00

bored si le... hope lata can go out...

tired

2007-01-25T20:02:00.000+08:00

today nv go sch cos is IS day... as usual no nid go.. but next thurs have to go for presentation... sian man... today sort of rotting at home.. but got project stuffs to do... firstly my task was to design membership card den have to design for the whole card also... after tat i suppose to look for a magazine template in msword format.. zz... i went google n search but well cant find any... so i told him i cant find... den i suppose to find photos of before and after for makeover... i tot they wanted like a not so nice pic for before.. n a nicer pic for after.. so i went friendster n look for the pics... after finding 10 people's before and after pic.. after tat i send to m.... den m says wrong already... cos nid to be the same pic den edit the pic... den say nid edit the pic with fireworks... zzz.. i dun have the program... n have i also dunno how to use... so end up i only finish the membership card..

after tat nth to do...
den i start to think of darling..
zzz... kipp missing her....
den i play fm... play till dunno wad time....
den i ask if got anything to do or not...
den nth to do... so continue to play fm...
play till dunno wad time... so sianz...
tmr ecd presentation hopefully it wont screw up..
recently feeling tired... like no energy like tat...
perhaps i really nid to have a rest....
but how to rest? exams approaching
9th feb first paper... really have to start studying...
so many things muz memorise...
so many formulas to memorise...
tiring... neck a bit suan now.. dun wan type le...

2007-01-24T22:05:00.000+08:00

changed my blog add cos i wan my blog to be more personal.. so i can type wad i wan more freely... i realise something... i dunno is it i'm too sensitive or wad... but i dun like the way how some things are done... but i dun wish to care further... since u guys dun wan involve me den its ok... i'm fine with it.. i noe tat starting i wasnt really involve maybe tat's y u guys like not involving me now... i really dunno... but starting i arent involve i have gt my reasons such as ivp and open hse... i have my things to busy with.. i noe project are impt... but open hse n ivp are also impt for me.. i wann to be involve... but if u guys arent giving me any job den i jus wait for work to come... i seriously think i should have changed project grp.. which i wanted to but din.. perhaps yr 3 ba...

exams coming really soon... 9th feb first paper.. time past really fast.. it's my 4th sem in NP already... 2 more sem i going to NS.. i dunno wad is it going to be like after NS.. i seems to have no future.. for now.. i dunno wad i wanna do in future... i thinking of being teacher... of cos not in high lvl of education.. cos i dun think i can make it... den i also thinking setting up biz... n also thinkin of taking over my dad biz.. but my dad biz from wad i see is quite diff from how a biz really runs... perhaps i can change it to a really CO. ba... anyway still long... yup... i have decided to save $ from now on n not to splurge... nid to save up for my future... my family etc... n i also nid to lose weight quick n effectively... i started to eat less n exercise more... but dam.. today jack bring us to clementi eat the botak jones western food... $5.50 for the fish n chip... n dam.. it's serving is so huge... the fries alone is like half of the plate... n the fish is like 2x of wad i usually eat at other place... n the coleslaw... make me sweat... so many la... den cant finish... eat till really full....

den had the post BAMP canadian pizza dinner jus now.. well... 4 out of people turned up for the dinner for my grp.. i think it's not bad ba... we had 2 pizzas... den everyone ate till left 5 pieces den stop... den i say since left 5 n there's 5 of us den we each take one la.. den we label the pizza from 1-5... den 1 is the no. to avoid as it is the biggest piece... we drew lots n see who to eat which piece... haha... pauline drew 1... but kevin ate the biggest piece for her... haha.. gentleman sia... gd example...i ate 2 pieces total.. haa.. the rest of them ate 3 or 4 after tat they went off den i go mix ard with the people there... den they was playing 'ou ah pei ah som' den they gang up to sabo people drink the diluted coke... lol... i ended up ganging up with them to sabo people drink.. haha... den after awhile i left cos i feeling rather tired... cos having headache... now still got the headache... maybe gonna rest soon after i finish blogging... well.. i asked if we meeting tmr for project.. he din replied.. well i guess maybe later i sms him see ba... i shall take it tat he's afk now...

before going to rest.. going to play audi with darling awhile... cos her comp finally back to work.. haha... congrats... =D i love u darling... muacks

blog

2007-01-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

long time nv blog le... hehe... tmr open hse finish tmr.. hope nth goes wrong for my table tennis booth, so far still ok... ivp jus finished.. NP only manage to beat RP 5-0... den lost the rest... ytd play TP, could have won... perhaps it's my fault or jus unlucky.. or maybe some one din play up to his standard.. its kinda obvious tat he threw 2 sets away easily... i dunno wad he doing ba.. nth i can say.. or is it i think wrongly? n he did tried his best? haa.. dunno ba... certain tings r jus too obvious...

well.. ask me if i'm disappointed abt the ivp, i wouldnt say i'm... got use to losing.. lol... although the whole competition i won TP and RP players. but wad's the pt of me winning only.. tmr morning going to sch for the open hse duty... maybe staying a bit longer.. den going vivo city to look for darling... she having a booth at vivo city... but she only can go off at 10pm.. so i think i jus go see her only..

i'm so proud of myself.. hehe... 4th day of dieting... wahaa... shit.. wed eating pizza.. faint.. think i wont be eating too much..

sucky

2007-01-03T18:11:00.000+08:00

starting to feel a bit sucky...
no. of things in my schedule to be due soon:
-HRM project
-BLAW project
-ECD project
-I&E project
-Open hse booth duty list

no. of things bothering me:
-as above of those in my schedule.
-IVP
-falling sick
-$ problem
-poor results

plenty of work to do...

ytd when i in sch mom called... ask me where m i... i said.. in sch... n her reply was filled with scolding.. scolding me cos of my hp bill $90+... n hse phone bill $30+.. i noe i'm wrong to overuse my hp bill... but hse phone bill i think it's reasonable for me to use.. arent it? if not u expect me to use hp to call out? den i think my hp bill will be like $300... sighs... ytd she scolded.. i felt its ok... i did wrong... she had the right to scold... today she called again.. she scolded again.. for the same reason... but tis time she say my dad ask her to tell me dun use so much..... n i was getting rather irritated by it... cos is like u said one... fine... but wad for repeat again? n before she hang down the phone she say my dad remind me now cannot have bgr... i really cant understand why... i noe bgr would be more stable after i complete my NS. but i'm handling my bgr well.. its so unfair when i see everyone around me has a love one. n yet they dun have to hide it.. why is it tat their parents are open minded.. n not mine? its so unfair.. i'm 19... n they treat me like a kid.. why? it's not as if i dunno how to think.. i'm old enough to take care of my matters... i noe i m not as mature as they think... but is it really such a bad thing if i were to have a r/s? i hate to hide it from them... i wanted to tell them i have a lovely gf... but i cant imagine the consequences if i were to tell them... n after my mom told me my dad remind me not to have a r/s now.. the more i have to hide from them... sighs... how i wish my parent can stop treating me like a kid...

n before she said all those crap above she asked if i coming home for dinner... i told her maybe not... but i wanted to save $ so i changed my mind n wanted to ask her she got cook is it? but den before i could ask she started crapping. so after listening to all this crap i starting to feel a bit irritated... den after she say finish i ask her she got cook? she reply tot u say not eating at home? den i shouted u got cook huh? den she say if u wan den come back n eat tgr... i couldnt control it...

morning had hrm tutorial... got back my common test paper for hrm.. when i saw my paper i can only say i'm disappointed... really.. i noe i studied last min.. but i really did put in a lot of effort into it... after the paper i felt tat it was quite easy... but how the hell i get 29/50? i dun understand.. really disappointed... even heaven is crying for me now... sighs... really sucks... still got a few paper haven get back.. i hope i can see better scores... or perhaps i deserve it for revising last min..

tmr will be going back sch to complete hrm project... after tat evening should be got training... but i dunno if i can make it or not.. my left leg is aching... n i think i m gonna have flu... i really wanna do well for sch during ivp... i'm afraid my flu cant recover in time... pls... dun let me have flu... i hate flu.... it takes me 2 weeks to recover each time i have flu... hate it...

Darling, i wish to say no matter how strongly my parents opposes me of having a gf.. i will nv ever leave u... i can listen to them for many things... but tis i cant listen to them... n thank u for being so concern... i'm sorry if i made u worried..

project

2007-01-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

wed is hrm project deadline... today is monday.. shit man...muz chiong le.. tmr going sch chiong le... but morning nid to help my mom do something.. den go sch...

yawns... man utd match is at 1.10am.. considering whether wan to watch or not... nth much to blog.. byee

tigger

2007-01-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

i love my baby tigger! Happy New Yr to all! Best wishes for the upcoming 2007!

Tigger

2006-12-31T13:25:00.000+08:00

woohoo.. ytd was 2nd mth anniversary... i brought a small pillow for darling... she brought me a baby tigger! omg... i love baby tigger... hahaha.. so cute... nice to hug also... hehe... thanks darling...

ytd afternoon went PS meet jie to pass her present for her b'day.. Happy b'day jie.. =p after tat pei jie go pcbunk buy prepaid card for her fren.. den after tat she went to mit her frens.. i din noe wad to buy for darling.. so i went back to PS n walk around... den saw the pillow quite cute.. so buy for her...

sch reopening soon... nid to study again le... haha... my 2 weeks break like not really break like tat... tiring... ivp competition coming soon... start on 11 jan... NP is like underdogs man... hopefully other schs be like chelsea like tat.. play below standards.. lol.. den we got chance... =x but chances are really low...

ytd chelsea drew again... so happy sia.. hahahahhaa... man utd won... rocks man... man utd gonna be EPL Champions! =x... later going er yi hse... might be home late ba.. cos new yr eve ma... so will be very late den come home ba... =/ sorry darling.. cant pei u chat on phone.. but online i can =p

the tigger so cute! wahahaha
ty darling i love the Tigger.
but i love u more =D.