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Thursday, June 22, 2006

Recently i got "blessed" with a string of bad lucks and thing.. wonder wad went wrong.. i asked myself y things turn out tis way??? but i get no answer.. arent tis suppose to be a gd year for Rabbit?? pls let me have back the good luck.. i really nid it..

Yesterday went sch did project.. we didnt really did much did we? well.. but came home n finish up the report n sent to mork(Morgan) for him to edit n collate. Some time i really hate holidays.. got holiday like dun have like tat.. den wad for sia. arent tis suppose to be 2 weeks break?? 2 weeks break tat is filled up with 2 projects and 2 elearning to submit after the break. wad kind of break is tis? Another thing is that.. i hate to hate at home when having holiday.. 1 reason.. i'm at home i feel like a maid.. nid to vacuum mop floor.. hang clothes blah blah blah~ wonder if i'm their maid/son.. how i wish i could have a sister! damn..

Ytd after came from from sch i was slammed with lots of rubbish... dad phone spoil la.. ask me y like tis y like tat... den i told my bro i wan upgrade maxonline to get HP ipad.. den he ask me check with my singtel number got contract or not.. no contract change to starhub also den got free camera with ipad.. den both of them talk to me at the same time.. den i so confused.. den my kor ask upgrade the maxonline from $50+ to $70+ who pay... i say i pay the extra 20 lor.. den my mum cut in.. u pay u pay.. ur hp bill $100+ for 2 mths u pay wad..

den i felt so pissed yet sad.. cos i explode my bill she scold also i cant do anything.. den my kor say to my mom.. u noe y he will explode.. cos not he pay wad.. den i feel so fucking shit.. i ownself pay so many things u all noe ma? one day gimme $10 eat morning till night.. how much $ can i save? the $ i save just enough for me to watch a movie with fren or have a proper meal with frens occasionally.. wad more.. my cpf no money for insurance deduction.. i top up it myself from my bank.. now my bank left a pathetic amt of $11.. wt..F.. $11.. i cant believe i have so little $$.. i feel so shit..

just now tried to do AAA's elearning.. MYOB(Mind Your Own *fking* Business) the stupid instruction with pictures dun match with the program i have.. i think i m in deep shit.. tis 2 weeks break sucks.. really sucks..

i think if nth goes wrong after tis semester during the 6weeks break i will be going OCBC for attachment.. yea! no nid be maid.. so glad.. pls gimme good luck!!!! i hate being in all tis shit.. i feel so stressed... but i wont go down.. i will fight! i wanna be back the me few yrs back.. whom is fearless n confident.. i wonder where did all my confidence went to?? is it becos of the things i saw as i move on with my life.. things tat make me feel down to earth.. feel for realistic.. really wish i could get back tat confidence.. i have seen much of the world le.. it's tiring.. it wear out my confidence in life.. no matter wad.. i noe there's alway people who is ard to care n support me. so i will fight my way out of tis shit.

Fight Fight Fight!
on 1:50 PM