Sunday, April 29, 2007
i'm so tired now... ytd spent the morning in sch... n rest of the day at sentosa..
went there play soccer,volleyball and frisbie... end up so tired...
after all the activities at sentosa, we went to vivo to eat... due to the many people we have..
we brought food den we ate at the roof area... quite nice.. haha... can see the sky... although no stars... after we finish eating den we were chatting and having fun... haha... love those days..
everytime with my friends i feel so happy and enjoyable...
ytd morning had MC interview in sch.. lol... at first quite relax when i go into the room...
den got stunned by the first question peifen ask... totally shocked...
cos i din attach photo on the registration paper... den i sat down.. she ask:" why din u attach ur photo on the application form? Do u think it's not necessary or is it redundant?"
i was totally stunned.. haha.. some more she look so stern when she ask...
den i replied, when i had my SCO interview last yr i had attached a photo already. n furthermore we had work tgr for the past 1 yr so i think there's no nid for me to attach a photo..
haha... quite scare already.. den wan qi. laugh say i scare already.. lol... den i laugh abit den more relax.. den the rest of the interview was quite relax... i find it fun actually.. haha.. cos i feel tat if cant get in MC also nvm.. cos i still can help out even if i'm not in BA Society... haha.. like wad yongjie alway do..
skin getting dry... haha... got tanned too much ytd.. but i think not as bad as the rest of them.. all look like lobster last nite.. haha.. made a few new friends ytd... got some yr1 quite enthu.. hopefully they get involve in society.. cos they are suitable candidates.. aha... 1week later will noe if got get in MC or not.. but i dun carry much hopes.. cos got a lot stronger candidates n i dun really mind if i dun get in.. think later i go get a short nap.. den wake up do tutorials.. feeling lazy le... maybe dun wan go out later... haha..
thanks ben and wenzhong for the concern u guys show.. appreciate it.. u 2 are really nice seniors.. aha... c u guys soon again before u all go NS n botak island..
on 12:29 PM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
ytd had training.. not really training i should say... more of eyeing for new talent for the table tennis team.. well.. not many are gd.. but at least got a few who noe how to play... but i'm disappointed with myself... cos i had become very lousy.. totally different from wad i was 2/3 mths ago.. haha.. probably i m worst den some of the yr1 who jus joined...
today is a bad day.. a bad bad day for many people i suppose... everything start to goes wrong in the morning.. listening to 9.33.... news, liverpool lost chelsea 1-0.. i was cursing chelsea in my heart... but tis nvm.. i was cool with it... when i reach the bus stop, a single deck 74 came, being experienced, i suspect it to be full packed... n like wad i expected.. it din even open its dam door when it stop at the bus stop to let off some passenger... but it's ok.. the time at the point of time is 8.40am.. i was cool with it too.. dun mind waiting for the next bus.. as i waited... 20mins gone.. a double deck 74 came... time now: 9.10am, as expected, fully packed.. i knew i was going to be late for my IS class... but praying the next bus come soon n got space, so wont be more den 15mins late for class... as i waited.. roughly at 9.30, another 74 came.. fully pack.. at tis point of time, i got a bit frustrated... i scan the situation n realise two poly looking guys who had waited with me for the past 40mins had decided to take cab... and a girl went up to them to share the cab as she's going SIM for exam.. i start to think if i should take cab.. i decided to wait some more.. but when the time reach 9.40am, i couldnt take it! i approach them n ask if ngee ann poly was on the way.. lol... desperate already had to share cab with total stranger... so the 4 of us, standing near the bus stop trying to flag a cab.. n for some dam freakin bad day, there's no available cab... at tis point of time, the SIM girl who had exam is almost bursting into tears.. think she probably taking biz law exam, saw her textbk... she decided to give up on the cab and went off.. hopefully she din did anything silly.. so left the 3 of us, 2 np 1 sp.. we waited for awhile more.. den came bus 165.. so we decided to take it n go serangoon north to take cab as there's more cab there... upon reaching, we waited desperately for another 15mins... time now: 10.30am.. (for ur info, my class starts at 10am) n jus nice yongjie called a cab, n he's taking it near the place we r waiting for cab.. so i told the 2 guys let's go over to find him den we take there.. so the cab came like almost 10.40am... we took the cab.. reached ngee ann around 11.05am.. den chiong to vin enterprise to photocopy notes.. den chiong to class.. lol.. walk into class.. the tutor is at the last slide of the lesson.. we sat down.. n class ended... the only fortunate thing tat happened today is tat the tutor let me n yongjie mark our attendance.. lol...
after all my classes which end like 3+pm, we went to lib n slack.. den 5pm onwards we play boardgames in the new room at lib... play till 8+ den left... reached home.. bath.. online... haha.. all hopes are dashed yet had to act positive.. probably it sum up a bad day.. hopefully no more bad things happen... but dun look like... my printer ink seems to be dying.. dammit.. pls let me finish printing my notes first!
wad an "amazing" day i had.. fuck it.. i dun curse often on blog.. but pls let me do so for tis once.
on 10:50 PM
Monday, April 23, 2007
i guess it's time for me to stop n take a breath..
it's time to really sit down n think of my future..
i noe i had did something terribly bad recently.. but if i nv do it i will feel worse..
i cant face u if i were to take it tat nth had happen.. i noe wad i say now also wont make u feel any better.. all i can do now is apologise which i noe u wouldnt want any either...
i really nid a break myself also.. after so many things tat happen in such a short span of time, i nid a break.. i wanna rest... things happen the way i expected it to be.. the bad way.. should i say tis is one of the most interesting part of my life i had ever experienced.. ups and downs in such a short span of time.. being able to bring MA to be the best OG is one of the happiest/biggest thing i had achieved.. yet problems flood in after baoc.. i'm coping with it.. well.. i hope..
certain things tat happen disappoints me, but i can accept it.. cos i noe where i stand.. n as long as the one is happy it will be good enough already.. (peiwen, i not referring to u for not wanting to be sco, i absolutely respect ur decision. i talking abt other things..)
life now is pretty bland n simple.. everyday come home do tutorial, print notes for next day lecture.. go msn talk crap n slp.. weekend will probably be occupied by family n friends.. whom i had neglected for some time.. family is really impt.. friends too.. i really love my friends and family.. it's them who made me who i am today..
although life's tough now.. but i can manage.. dun worry abt me... if u noe me long enough u would noe i will forget all unhappiness as long as i wan to... take cares all my dear friends and family..
on 8:58 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
i'm sorry. but it wasnt easy for me to tell u tat let's just be friends..
i have my reasons for doing so..
i rather hurt u now den to hurt u even more in future...
i cant lie to myself n force myself to carry on.. by doing so, i would have hurt u even more..
i'm truly sorry.
on 6:02 PM
wadever tat had happened recently had made me realise i have to cherish my mom a lot.. for all the love n care she had given me, there's nth i can do in return for tat... i wanna cherish her as much as i can.. i wanna spend quality time with her.. she had been really nice to me and to think back i haven been the best son i could have been to her.. for all the mistakes i made and made her lost her temper, i felt bad thinking back now.. i will do my best to make up for all the love my mom had given me.. mommy i love u.. though i noe u wont be reading tis..
as time goes by, i feel more sure of my decision..
thank u to those who had been showing concern for me, especially those who noe wad's bothering me.. thank u friends who had been so great throughout my poly life.. u guys made a difference in my life.. poly would be dead boring without all of u.. i love u all my frens.. thank u
looking forward to a new life.. hope everything will be fine..
on 1:14 PM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
i think i roughly have a decision.. but since u wan me to tell u on wed.. den i will tell u on wed...
still will think thru for tis few days...
family... problematic... i cant see anything positive... really hope nth will happen...
i miss the baoc days... miss my SCs.. miss doing the work... i think it is the most meaningful part of my life to be a sco... nothing can be compared to it... hope to be able to see most of my sc present for bbq.. n hopefully the freshies will come too...
thx wini mei for lending me ur listening ears..
i m feeling so tired... tired of wad's happening...
i nid a break..
on 11:23 PM
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
i dun wan to hurt anyone but i had obviously hurted u..
i'm at lost of wad to do.. i dunno how to continue like tis..
i dun wan to make a decision now n den change my mind again..
the problem lies with me.. not u... i think tis is my weakness..
i cant make decisions.. i jus cant make up my mind now..
5mths long.. but yet i'm feeling lost now.. i kept thinking
on bed before slp i think, on the way to sch i think.. i kip thinking..
yet i cant reach an answer.. i dun wan to hurt u.. seriously..
i cant stop myself from feeling tis way.. it doesnt feel good and i'm sure u dun feel gd too...
i myself now feeling so confused...
my family have got probs.. i dunno wad will happen also...
hao fan ah!
on 5:59 PM
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
my mind is in a state of confusion.. i think it's the main source of distraction even during lecture..
i feel super sleepy during lectures man.. try very hard to kip my eyes open.. but kip closing eyes too.. ever since during the 4th or 5th week of baoc preparation tis had been bothering me.. i tot after baoc it would be ok.. but it dun seems so.. ever since baoc ended i jus cant fall straight to sleep when i lie on my bed.. i'm suppose to be super slpy.. yet my mind will wonder n wonder for a long time before i finally go to dream land.. i m lost myself.. can i bring myself to a decision? a decision i wont regret? i seriously dunno.. should i leave things as it is? or maybe things should change?
confused winson.
on 8:37 PM
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Hurray! Mythical Atlantis Best OG group..
I feel so proud to be the SCO for MA..
Thank you all my SCs for making this possible..
i really appreciate all the effort u guys had put in..
all the hard work put in is really worth it..
i see the freshies enjoying themselves.. i see the SCs having fun
i feel so happy for them.. i feel happy for myself too..
seeing all the hard work all the sweat all the tears had not gone to waste..
the journey of a SCOs is tough, but it had definitely been fun and one which i will remember for life... i want to thank jason, christina and tommy for giving me a chance to be a SCO.. i hope i had not let u guys down and thanks for being so sweet for making all the SCOs each an award..
i'm sure all the SCOs feel great being part of the SCOs family.. and jason thank u for having faith in me and thanks for all the encouragement.. if not for you, we might not had been the best og.. it's you who inspired me to join as SCO and for that you had changed my life.. i really enjoyed every moment spent with everyone in society.. i'm sure i will nv be able to forget all this.. i want to thank all the SCOs for playing such a big part to make this friendship among us such a wonderful one.. you guys will alway be my friends n i definitely wont forget all of u.. i had learn plenty from all of u and thanks for helping me when i had difficulties..
to christina boss, thank u for understanding the SCOs.. we had gave u plenty of headaches but each time u still stand by us and support us.. sorry for all the trouble we gave u but i'm sure the SCOs had not let u down at the end of the day and we are definitely all ur precious SCOs =D
to my partner mori and jerel. thanks for the fantastic partnership, i had learn many thing from u guys... jerel u had been fantastic as an ASCO and for me u r definitely the best asco.. thank u for the commitment u have put in. i really hope u can takeover our role as SCO n join society next year.. it may be a tough journey but i'm sure it promises lots of fun and learning experiences as well. i can see u being a great SCO so do give it a thought as to whether u want to continue as SCO or not..
ty mori for all these while, being my classmate,project mate, SCO partner. working together in so many different things had let me learn a lot from u.. sorry if we couldnt work well at times but i'm sure we had the best interest of MA in mind.. 1 more year as classmate ahead.. see u in lecture n class! =)
To my SCs, u guys had put in plenty of effort.. some of u had contributed a lot a lot to make this possible.. hope u guys had enjoyed the process and most imptly take care and take more rest.. drink more water to get back ur voice k.. Good job guys, without u guys we wouldnt have become the best although we are the smallest group.
Love Mythical Atlantis and everyone of Mythical Atlantis!
sorry to those whom i have neglected throughout this period of time..
on 3:27 PM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
things certainly has changed over this 1 mth.
how should i say.. i jus feel like a different person now..
i feel like the gap between us had become bigger..
like wad u said, we got nth much to say to each other now..
i dun wan things to be like tat..
i had been busy with my orientation stuffs.. it means a lot to me..
i wan to be a gd SCO to my SCs and they mean a lot to me also..
i became a SCO as i really enjoy it when i do the orientation preparation..
n most importantly, is becos jason inspired me..
i wan to do a good job as a SCO, i dun wan to let jason down..
i wan to make MJ-ians n now MA-ians proud..
i wan to be one of the best group for the orientation..
even if cant get top 3, as long as my SCs enjoyed the process i'm happy too..
for the past 5 weeks, i have devoted my time to this orientation..
i work all day to make sure everything is in order..
sometime i can feel the stress.. i sit down n i feel helpless at times..
but i noe, as a SCO i have to overcome it..
i have to lead my SCs, get things done and more imptly my SCs respect us..
as time goes.. i can say i have many gd SCs, i can see their commitment..
i really appreciate it.. and i wan to thank my SCs.. though i dun think they have my blog add.
will consider disclosing my blog add..
i wan to apologise for wad is happening now..
we had been tgr for 5mths.. yet now, i dun have confidence..
especially this period of time.. i dunno how to tell u how i feel..
but definitely i'm disappointed... i think tis all this feeling start to grow when u ask for break up the 2nd time.. i have tried very hard to put it behind me..
but i realise i cant.. our gap grow bigger n bigger especially now i'm so busy..
i have to tell u the truth.. some times i really dunno wad i'm thinking..
sometime i really feel like giving up... but i also wan to stay on
i noe u arent feeling gd either.. rmb u ask me not long ago, whether avoiding me is a good solution.. i told myself dun give up yet.. i tried.. i tried very hard..
but it jus cant be the same as the past..
i'm sorry to say all these... i jus hope when orientation over things will be better..
but also.. i dun wan u to suffer.. if u choose to let go i wont stop u...
on 10:56 AM
