# - Love ;; __ it's true .
Sunday, July 19, 2009

sometimes i think we dun quite understand each other.. certain things we dun really see eye to eye.. often ending up in unhappy discussion which i think both of us feel very irritated..
it has been quite a tough period for me.. i jus wish everything will go well..

things may have changed a bit due to how life has been for us.. i wish u can understand the situation im in, u noe best wad i like n dislikes so naturally i will get irritated if the dislikes happens.. i have told u wad i prefer of u n wad i dun like so hopefully things will get better..

recently i read a amazing book by Jean Chatzky. she's an amazing writer.. inspirational i would say.. perhaps it had make me see more meaning of life.. i had been living without any dreams/goals for the past 21yrs.. i have decided to change it n make a difference..

will update wad goals i have soon...
on 1:43 PM

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

im feeling so messed up now..
life's hasn't been the same ever since my dad got this illness..
i guess i screwed up my own life by increasing my expenses each month..
i feel so irritated with myself now.. why do i have to spend $ on stuffs..
carelessness lead to me having to buy a new phone..
foolishness lead me to spent money i shouldnt be spending..

the economy crisis is kicking in for me..
things doesnt happens the way i wan to..
i have a negative balance which im trying hard to clear but it's an uphill task..
people around me having their own problems too.. wish i could help..
if only i had the financial power to solve all these problems..
life is stagnant to me now. almost nth interest me anymore..
i jus wish i can get myself out of this shit soon.. but i dun see it happening anytime soon..

pressure is setting in from everywhere.. only way to release them is by playing sports
tat's the only thing tat i can do to temporary remove the thoughts in my mind..
i got myself into tis shit n now i really dun feel gd at all..

hanging on, being tough is a chore.. tired of shouldering wad is on my back
but i no longer have control of my life.. life is controlling me..
if there's god, pls take pity of me. ur help will be greatly appreciate..
really wonder if i had been doing the right thing all along.. doubt myself..

deep deep shit.. falling apart
on 10:08 PM