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Saturday, March 08, 2008

life have not been so good. but life is summed up by 3 words which are "it goes on"
saw tis phrase in the movie recently.

started work tis week... went to work for my dad... i can feel the pressure working for dad, i dunno if its gd or not.. i learnt abt succession planning, a company muz have someone whom can take over the boss when he or she is nt ard.. tis theory had been circling my mind for the week.. there's stress i cant avoid n expectations that i have to meet.

it hasnt been a v nice day today arent it.. i was so looking forward to it, so i can have a break and rest n enjoy the day with u.. but it didnt really turn out to be the way i wished for.. i blame myself for it.. i really really felt so painful.. n yet i dun shed the tears... cos i know it wouldnt help or solve the problem.. i tried i failed.. maybe im jus a lessordinary person..

since young, i had been protected well.. perhaps tat make me turn out to be such a soft person now.. i dun wan to be tis way.. n yet its how im molded into.. i cant handle myself well in situation.. perhaps my brain is jus too lazy to think... im amazed sometimes by the experiences i go thru at work.. it helped me learn to be flexible.. simple little solutions seems so hard to come into me..

starting to doubt my own abilities... i happen to hear on the radio a morning on my dad's car to work... the dj said: it's not becos we cant succeed den we lack of self belief, it's our lack of self belief which lead to inability to succeed. a sentence like tat made me realised many things.. but yet, its jus seems so difficult for one to have faith after failure..

it hurts me so much.. yet i felt like unable to do anything.. i would call it the most painful thing in this world.. tired..
on 11:23 PM