# - Love ;; __ it's true .
Sunday, August 27, 2006

if u have been visiting here, i suppose u muz be wondering y i nv blog for so many days.. for the past week i had exams n i was studying almost 12hours a day? i have every confident to pass all the papers except AAA.. my accounting sucks forever i guess.. n AAA was on fri.. i felt so sian after the paper.. when they comparing answers.. mine is like 90% wrong... but i was still happy tat exams have ended.. and thinking finally i can give u more time.. haha.. i was wrong.. terribly wrong.. i knew it would happen.. but i chose not to believe till the whole truth is being found out by myself.. y dun u jus tell me u like ur classmate? y muz u let me find out myself? i felt so terrible after i read ur blog.. really terrible.. perhaps it's all my wishful tinking.. ask urself y did i gave up fang n choose u... fang actually was ready to accept me... but i chose u instead.. now i think back i felt like i m such a fool arent i? now i m laughin at myself so being such a fool.. everything happened so suddenly... n u expect me to still treat u as fren? i wish i could.. but i cant.. it's not i dun wan.. i jus cant.. i cant accept wad happened so suddenly.. i nv noe if i will ever accept it.. but i dun blame u.. instead i blame myself.. blame myself for being so silly.. blame myself for liking u.. blame myself for changing heart.. blame myself to let down fang.. blame myself to trust my feelin... blame myself yes everything blame myself.. but i guess after 48hours or so.. i m feelin much better den fri nite.. i muz thank fang for meetin me ytd.. but i guess during the time i spend with her which was like abt 3 n a half hours.. i think i spoke to her less den 5 sentences.. i rmb i ask her, had ur lunch? wad show she wan watch, she nid any drink? n said sorry to her. that's all.. i dint noe y i behave like tat.. perhaps i felt so guilty tat i din noe wad i can say to her.. for all the things n misunderstanding of her, she still treat me as a fren.. but i dun think i wanna mit her again... cos definitely i dunno wad to say to her.. cos i noe i dunno wad to say.. n i feel so ashamed to face her also..

anyway i m really alright now.. i gona start attachment tmr.. excited.. first time do office work.. anyway i m quitting my maplestory account. however i would play. but not my account.. play my fren account.. cos i dun like play my account already..
on 8:56 PM