Wednesday, January 03, 2007
starting to feel a bit sucky...
no. of things in my schedule to be due soon:
-HRM project
-BLAW project
-ECD project
-I&E project
-Open hse booth duty list
no. of things bothering me:
-as above of those in my schedule.
-IVP
-falling sick
-$ problem
-poor results
plenty of work to do...
ytd when i in sch mom called... ask me where m i... i said.. in sch... n her reply was filled with scolding.. scolding me cos of my hp bill $90+... n hse phone bill $30+.. i noe i'm wrong to overuse my hp bill... but hse phone bill i think it's reasonable for me to use.. arent it? if not u expect me to use hp to call out? den i think my hp bill will be like $300... sighs... ytd she scolded.. i felt its ok... i did wrong... she had the right to scold... today she called again.. she scolded again.. for the same reason... but tis time she say my dad ask her to tell me dun use so much..... n i was getting rather irritated by it... cos is like u said one... fine... but wad for repeat again? n before she hang down the phone she say my dad remind me now cannot have bgr... i really cant understand why... i noe bgr would be more stable after i complete my NS. but i'm handling my bgr well.. its so unfair when i see everyone around me has a love one. n yet they dun have to hide it.. why is it tat their parents are open minded.. n not mine? its so unfair.. i'm 19... n they treat me like a kid.. why? it's not as if i dunno how to think.. i'm old enough to take care of my matters... i noe i m not as mature as they think... but is it really such a bad thing if i were to have a r/s? i hate to hide it from them... i wanted to tell them i have a lovely gf... but i cant imagine the consequences if i were to tell them... n after my mom told me my dad remind me not to have a r/s now.. the more i have to hide from them... sighs... how i wish my parent can stop treating me like a kid...
n before she said all those crap above she asked if i coming home for dinner... i told her maybe not... but i wanted to save $ so i changed my mind n wanted to ask her she got cook is it? but den before i could ask she started crapping. so after listening to all this crap i starting to feel a bit irritated... den after she say finish i ask her she got cook? she reply tot u say not eating at home? den i shouted u got cook huh? den she say if u wan den come back n eat tgr... i couldnt control it...
morning had hrm tutorial... got back my common test paper for hrm.. when i saw my paper i can only say i'm disappointed... really.. i noe i studied last min.. but i really did put in a lot of effort into it... after the paper i felt tat it was quite easy... but how the hell i get 29/50? i dun understand.. really disappointed... even heaven is crying for me now... sighs... really sucks... still got a few paper haven get back.. i hope i can see better scores... or perhaps i deserve it for revising last min..
tmr will be going back sch to complete hrm project... after tat evening should be got training... but i dunno if i can make it or not.. my left leg is aching... n i think i m gonna have flu... i really wanna do well for sch during ivp... i'm afraid my flu cant recover in time... pls... dun let me have flu... i hate flu.... it takes me 2 weeks to recover each time i have flu... hate it...
Darling, i wish to say no matter how strongly my parents opposes me of having a gf.. i will nv ever leave u... i can listen to them for many things... but tis i cant listen to them... n thank u for being so concern... i'm sorry if i made u worried..
on 6:11 PM
