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Sunday, April 08, 2007

things certainly has changed over this 1 mth.
how should i say.. i jus feel like a different person now..
i feel like the gap between us had become bigger..
like wad u said, we got nth much to say to each other now..
i dun wan things to be like tat..

i had been busy with my orientation stuffs.. it means a lot to me..
i wan to be a gd SCO to my SCs and they mean a lot to me also..
i became a SCO as i really enjoy it when i do the orientation preparation..
n most importantly, is becos jason inspired me..
i wan to do a good job as a SCO, i dun wan to let jason down..
i wan to make MJ-ians n now MA-ians proud..
i wan to be one of the best group for the orientation..
even if cant get top 3, as long as my SCs enjoyed the process i'm happy too..
for the past 5 weeks, i have devoted my time to this orientation..
i work all day to make sure everything is in order..
sometime i can feel the stress.. i sit down n i feel helpless at times..
but i noe, as a SCO i have to overcome it..
i have to lead my SCs, get things done and more imptly my SCs respect us..
as time goes.. i can say i have many gd SCs, i can see their commitment..
i really appreciate it.. and i wan to thank my SCs.. though i dun think they have my blog add.
will consider disclosing my blog add..

i wan to apologise for wad is happening now..
we had been tgr for 5mths.. yet now, i dun have confidence..
especially this period of time.. i dunno how to tell u how i feel..
but definitely i'm disappointed... i think tis all this feeling start to grow when u ask for break up the 2nd time.. i have tried very hard to put it behind me..
but i realise i cant.. our gap grow bigger n bigger especially now i'm so busy..
i have to tell u the truth.. some times i really dunno wad i'm thinking..
sometime i really feel like giving up... but i also wan to stay on
i noe u arent feeling gd either.. rmb u ask me not long ago, whether avoiding me is a good solution.. i told myself dun give up yet.. i tried.. i tried very hard..
but it jus cant be the same as the past..
i'm sorry to say all these... i jus hope when orientation over things will be better..
but also.. i dun wan u to suffer.. if u choose to let go i wont stop u...
on 10:56 AM