Sunday, November 25, 2007
as time pass by, one by one member left..
being a yr3, that's not a good feeling for experience..
however, i understand why they leave as the reasons are simple..
they jus dun feel happy being in society..
there's no pt staying in the society if they are unhappy..
so much so of trying so hard to be bonded, things jus still go beyond control..
i am one of those that lead him into society..
from my freshie, to my SC, to my PH.. i should say he is also one of the most talkable fren in poly.. i'm sure he had been thru so much to have make the decision to leave society..
i can feel for him as i dread being in society now also..
jus 1/2 more months.. and i will enjoy my freedom jus like him...
being in society had made me give up various things of my life..
n the society i'm saying is my sch society.. not secret society. lol..
i once told myself to quit all cca when i'm yr3...
however, i made all the wrong decisions...
initially din wan to apply to be mc this yr... cos i wan to enjoy my life in last yr of poly...
same for table tennis, ever since the seniors left, the team spirit is jus diff..
i wanted to quit at the start of sem 5... yet i dun wan disappoint some people so i stayed..
i dun regret staying.. cos i can see the growth of my juniors..
and seeing the yr1 improving.. i wan to pass them all of i noe abt table tennis to them..
so they can improve and eventually win me before i grad..
but for society, i really regret... for all the fun i had being a sco i decided to join..
but where's all the fun i anticipated being a mc?
maybe the problem lies with me.. but i still feel it's so diff from wad i saw from the last batch and feel.. i can see that the last batch was well bonded and very close to each other...
however, the society now is like so cold... things jus dun go the way we wan..
in organising events, our bookings of venue had to go thru estate mgt.. which is forever making things difficult for us.. and advisors leaving the sch and causing a lack of advisors for society..
i jus feel tat tis isn't the society tat deserve to be the best acade society.
the past batch of mc had done well to win the best acade society each yr..
perhaps tis had set the benchmark on us and this is a gd pressure but is it jus too much for the yr2? i dunno... the P says she is sure everyone can cope.. yes, i agree..
planning and organising wise everyone can cope.. workload too...
but in the mist of coping with these, how much people in our lives we actually neglect?
i once quit maple when i was SCO, cos i wan to do my OG proud.. n i did it.. so i dun regret..
but now i think back why do i tie myself down to tis society when all it gives me is disappointment now.. after my tis last event. i will play back maple.. i wan to enjoy my life now..
if not now den when? after grad den soon will be NS..
i'm sure each n everyone in society now had self reflected if they had contributed enough..
i arent much better... i admit i'm not committed now.. not interested in wad is going on too..
but i put in effort in all my events.. perhaps lesser in the coming one..
but lesser also becos i trust my yr2s can do a gd job as they had already went thru at least 1 event n that certainly give them the experience needed to run tis coming event..
shall continue tis post again.. later..
on 9:24 AM
